Recent content by Jen

I made that first step and it was hard but I feel like I may be getting somewhere. I've started my own diary on here now as I feel like I am officially on the way to recovery although it will be hard. Thank you for your advice and support x

11 hours and counting! Can't sleep or eat and feel quite sick but planning on trying never the less. Wish me luck! x

Thank you all for your replies and your advice. I know I need to not think too much about it and just do it. I just feel sick and start to panic when I think about even acknowledging what happened to anyone. I shake a lot when I talk about anything personal and really don't want to do that. I'm...

I have finally done it. I've made myself an appointment with a therapist on Tuesday. I feel like I've made a massive step but still feel so close to backing out. I feel very scared. Really very nervous. I don't know how to do it, what to talk about - I feel I may not even be able to talk at all...

I'm definitely with Tarot on this one. I can't believe what I have just read, things just seem to of fallen in to place a little. A connection that I have never made before. Thank you Megnut. I have also had massive issues with eye contact. Not just in sex but also just in regular conversation...

Ok so it's been 5 months since I wrote this post and I have still moved no further. I couldn't go through with the process of getting into counselling as they wanted me to do a biographical questionnaire and it was just too hard for me to write what I thought was the problem or even circle...

I've never really had any major issues with disassociation. I do go off in my own little world a lot, often when I feel uncomfortable in situations. It's only recently that after sex, the next day I cannot remember doing it. I remember being slightly uncomfortable and then after sleeping I...

I am sorry this happened. You deserved to have someone listen to you. Everyone does. The first time I confided in someone was when I was around 9, when it was still happening. I had stayed at my cousins who was of a similar age and were having a chat before bed and asked each other what our...

Dear A, How did you ever think it was right to do this to a defenceless child who couldn't protect themselves? Did you think this was ok? Do you feel ANY remorse for what you have done, how you treated me and for the constant pain you have forced upon me every day of my life? Do you even care...

Ahhh I see Brucielucy. Yes I feel I would ask the same thing, or I would want to ask. But as rainbow said I'm not sure that I would feel and of the answers given were valid. Has anyone here been able to confront their abuser and how did it work out? I'm not sure that I have the courage to do...

I've been thinking a lot recently about whether speaking to my abuser about what happened and why he did these things would give me some sort of closure, or whether it would in fact just make things worse. If I could just understand. Which then led me to the question 'what would I say?' Maybe...

If you could say any one thing to your abuser and have the courage to do so, what would it be?

I'm sorry to hear of your stories. I feel this may be an issue for me too. I think in some way the pain of this, was worse than the abuse when I was younger. My mum left when I was 12, after years of cheating on my father. She had a form of munchausen Syndrome and made everyone think she was Ill...

That's a really good question. I know that I need to do it as it seems to be something that has helped everyone a lot, but I've never really thought what I want out of it. When I really think about it I guess I am looking for some sort of resolve to help stop thinking about what happened in...

Thank you for your post Muse, I do understand all the benefits and I am trying. I have emailed my local coucelling services asking for availabilities and how to go about getting started which was a big step but I still don't feel 100% confident that I can do it but I'm going to try my hardest to...