Recent content by Joannee

I have to say guys I does feel good to use the word holocaust which I dreaded to even think about, in a rational conversation with you.

Haha that's reassuring. When I asked my school mates, none of them were really affected by it. A lot of people I met also were not particularly affected although studied the same as me. When we were 15 we went to a museum, and the last part was about the holocaust. When we left and got back in...

I read about it on this forum! I am unsure at the moment, if I nurture that belief (it did cross my mind a few times) I don't want to make it worse and be engrossed in it. I'm also afraid to see pictures on forums, I've read on another thread there are actually forums where people try to...

I used to self harm when I was 16-18 but stopped, only had one bad episode about 5 years ago. Used to think controlling the pain would make me feel stronger! Apart from that never had suicidal thoughts, I do feel disconnected from the world on a certain level, like unless I am in a...

Hello! No I haven't, but all I ever did was see a therapist specifically to do emdr and work on that issue, so not sure how you normally get diagnosed for any of the other things, as I never saw / talked to anyone else...

Thank you really for your reply. I agree with you and that's the new path I want to get onto. People in documentaries are like zombies, dehumanized, hollow eyes... they always frightened me but I keep thinking that they were still human. The worst was to see the bodies in mass, negating the...

I'm not sure if it can work after the trauma. I can see how it could work before as desensitization though, prepare yourself for what you will later experience. My therapist said I should avoid reading or watching, as I try to control the trauma by reliving it, which is frequent with ptsd. The...

that's a tough one to be honest. I think that no one should tell you to stay or leave, as you might feel different and actually miss him. How do you feel if you imagine him with another girl? When I broke up with my ex, I couldn't bear his smell anymore, everything he did was annoying me, but I...

Welcome to the forums!!

Thank you for sharing, a lot of us have read your message, desiring to hear and offer a few words of compassion. Is it ok to receive the hugs of strangers? If anything, it shows that in a lot of us your pain resonate, even if no one will really know what you feel like and how they would have...

Hi punky, keep us posted about the rest of your day, writing, walking, having a bath, reading or having some nice food maybe?

I think I had moments when I thought revisiting it would helpme move on as I grew up and becane an adult, but now it's basically avoid anything relating to ww2. It was difficult before I did emdr as I work in a school, I would make a big detour on the way to my office in the library to avoid...

Hello! I looked at the other thread and it is from someone else, really interesting though. I used to read and watch about it later on, when I was 17 / 18, even becoming obsessed with the third reich and hitler at some point, I believe to try and control the fear, a kind of "if I watch a lot...

Hi Silver, yes that's what it is. Psychanalyst said it is a form of ptsd for lack of a better word, but I guess not in the true meaning of the word since my life was never in danger because of that. The symptoms are the same as ptsd though. Only in recent studies ptsd has been observed with...

Oh? I don't think I did, I might have commented on emdr forums two years ago, but I don't remember coming to this forum...how strange!