This day is not good

[Punky143]

Only 2 hours of sleep last night on meds that make me sleepy. Constant disassicoating. Of all kinds. Mostly the fog. Inability to figure out basic concepts. Frustration. Fear. Then, putting on the front. Not today. My body shakes. We're scared. Scared we're never coming back from this....

 

[Ronin]

Hi Punky,

Never is a long time.

Can you do something relaxing through the day, even if sleeping is impossible & you're scattered all over the place today? Do you have anything that soothes you when so scared? I'm sorry things are terrifying right now, but promise, it's not forever and doesn't mean you can't have better days.

 

[Joannee]

Hi punky, keep us posted about the rest of your day, writing, walking, having a bath, reading or having some nice food maybe?

 

[Punky143]

It all depends on who lets who...

 

[Ronin]

If I'm reading right this is in part a multiple parts dissociation problem, can you agree on one thing that is easiest to do right now, and that might ground you whole? :)

 

[Kailani]

It is scary! Grounding grounding would be my suggestion. I also found distraction helpful. I check out organizing clips on you tube and sometimes that mindless safe stuff helps me get back into a thinking and not feeling mode. Hope you get connected again!

 

[Punky143]

I'm trying. But, I do that fleeting/running thing. It hit both the media, then flooded fb. Then, the comments. The being, who sexually assaulted not only my child, but many others was granted bail until trial. I knew about this for a week. But he was spotted 5 min from my work. So, one of us said to get the hell outta there, now. We tried everything. But, when that one decides, it must be done.

 

[Ronin]

Do you have somewhere else to go? Different city, different state?

Or get a different form (... any) protection from that person?
You're living through each day, you're doing more than good.

 

[BlueOrange]

But he was spotted 5 min from my work. So, one of us said to get the hell outta there, now.

Is calling the police a helpful option to consider? Would a restraining order help?

 

[Freedomfighter]

Only 2 hours of sleep last night on meds that make me sleepy. Constant disassicoating. Of all kinds. M...

Hmmm, that is something that I have not thought about. Does that mean that when we disassociate then our sleeping rhythms suffer too? Because I often get erratic sleeping rhythms too. Now I am wondering what connections there are for that.

Do you guys think that flashbacks and disassociation causes our brains to simply not operate well enough to get a good sleep cycle going?

Of course when we have anxiety from flashbacks then the sleep suffers for sure. I had flashbacks today, smells that made my mind travel way back, behaviorisms of stalkers that would run my door in if they could, while proclaiming the opposite.