Recent content by jocko

No no, think bigger: dismantle mandated state education/babysitting, more rules and meddling will just create more problems, the structure itself is the problem. Stop forcing already stressed children (many from broken homes now but don't dare talk about that) into a badly outdated authoritarian...

I see it now as our entire society as obviously painfully 'mentally ill' and only some seem to take the rap for it, you're right it is hidden. The entire way of looking at 'mental health' is outdated and badly in need of overhaul like everything else but then we identify with the strong more...

I have no idea how to how to make friends. I feel like a freak. Good luck to you finding one.

I didn't have any before these last few years...It was the only thing that stopped me from killing myself. Started reading conspiracy theories which branched out into alot of consciousness/paradigm shift talk.. Alot of it seemed to echo what I think I understood better as a child then forgot. It...

I didn't know it was trauma at the time I just thought i was depressed. Got into all sorts of sad dark music, hadn't really ever before beyond the odd song. I'm glad I found Radiohead mostly, who sounded almost exactly like the inside of my head.

I'm not often sure how much is 'God' and how much is my own delusional paranoia/ideas of reference interfering with 'normal' perception. Mindfulness meditation has helped alot and I feel like I get alot of weird coincidences & intuitions now but then I know damn well these would be called...

I guess we should measure productiveness on a case-by-case basis, its individual to everyone but I still feel like I've wasted my life so far being screwed in the head and really don't know what to do now, I haven't been much myself since I was a kid I think. Seeing so clearly now I'm just...

I do now....I talk to myself alot lately too, out loud like a conversation. I don't know what else to do to make myself free anymore, it feels like there's such a huge negative momentum behind me already, I'm really confused with how split up I am in my head

I am now. I used to have a real temper but it got beaten down by all the retard adults with their mind games and power trips and just like flipped into a constant state of anxiety that just got worse. Now I'm older and can see the past maybe more clearly now and the impossible hole it feels like...

My case manager more and more now. Its great to see more of the person underneath the title, I think shes a beautiful lady & a great help. Otherwise I have friends online I quasi-connect to, as much as you can online I mean. Its frustrating that its not in person, I often feel very close to them...

I need a guy now. I've never had much of a male presence in my life & grew up a failure-to-launch nervous wreck, I want my shrink to be male. I need that kind of guidance/outlook if I can find it.

I find my general EQ has leaped to the other extreme now that I know myself (therefor other people) more. Before I was totally walled up in my head where everybody & everything was a mystery. Its too bad these gifts have come side-by-side some crushing deficits though. When I'm having a good...

I always have had delusions- bizarre thoughts & beliefs (phobias mostly), trapped in my own little world unable to connect to others, its just that they don't usually totally consume me lately. I stay grounded more. When I feel good I feel so in tune with everything, my inside world is mixed up...

That's true, I wouldn't have started to come out of my shell in search of help If I wasn't living in absolute terror all the time, afraid when I might get set off next into a crushing feeling of impending death & damnation, totally depleted and exhausted with it all. And after these kind of...

I was tensing badly until recently, before conscious breathing & DBT & yoga; now I can see how 'letting go' has a physical side to it. I remember the last few years especially I'd sit closed up in a ball or sleep fetus style in bed, crunching up as tight as possible even if my limbs feel...