Recent content by Keen

Thanks, @TruthSeeker , these are really great ideas! I will try them!

Thank you so much @Teamwork and @enough , your thoughts and experiences and encouragement mean so much! I'm starting to feel maybe God understands if church is so triggering for me, maybe He's not waiting to punish me for not attending but compassionate about how hard it is for me to go.

Thanks @Sideways and @Liljoey , and everyone who has replied, your thoughts and ideas have been really helpful and given me some direction!

Thanks for the support @FauxLiz

I have similar experiences. Certain seemingly random scents or sounds or touch sensations that make me super tense or I find intolerable. Many of mine are similar to yours--tags, tight clothing, smoke, most essential oils, bright sun. I can't do strobe lights though. At first I thought it...

I was groomed and sexually abused by my religious leader when I was young. I belong to a Christian faith, and I'm just now realizing or making the connection that that could be why I struggle so much with my faith and trust in Jesus and in my church. My whole adult life I've been suspicious of...

Thanks, @Ronin , those are really good ideas of workarounds I'd never thought of!

Those are good ideas, thanks @joeylittle . Thats why this board is so great because we can get ideas that we never would've come up with on our own.

Thanks for your research @VioletButterfly . It is definitely a challenge and one I've always had but am only now realizing its not something other people deal with.

Thanks, I have never heard of that, I'll look it up! Now that you mention it, I remember that from that book. So maybe this is a trauma-related problem. No, I can't really put them together in my head either. Its like I can understand things, so I can take in the information fine, but I can't...

Yes, I am really good at memorization, I do awesome on tests and exams. But it is all about putting things into my own words. Its like once the info is in my brain, its in my memory so I can personally use it but the info can't go to the language areas of my brain so I can't explain them back or...

Thanks for your thoughts, @grit , you could be right and this could be related to the PTSD and dissociation in some way.

I have difficulty repeating back instructions despite understanding them and being able to behaviorally do them/follow them. The trouble is just in using language to explain what I know and understand in my head. So I can do what I'm asked to do, but can't explain to another person what the...

Wow, you are all so amazing and insightful, I really appreciate everyone's thoughts and perspectives on this! Thank you!

Thanks for your input, @Muttly . It makes sense that CSA would add complexity to figuring out ones gender as well as DID, I'm thankful for all of you sending me these thoughts to help me look at things from a broader perspective. It also makes it confusing and complicated when different alters...