Recent content by Ladygdala

Do you know if your dislike for certain lights is connected to dissociation at all? My bad! I did not click on reply in order to send back. To you. I wrote something above this in my response to yours.

I will reply to all. Thank you all for commenting!! I guess one of my abusivr situations happened in summer. But it was at night. I do remember walking home the next morning confused and it was hot out. But I’m not sure if it’s linked at all. I would wear sweaters a lot during summer because I...

Hello! Now that the weather is getting nicer my frustrating is growing. I am unable to really love those beautiful warm sunny days. I’m sure this is probably a more medical thing than cptsd thing. But I thought id see if anyone here has experienced this. When the sun is out, getting warmer, and...

I struggle with this as well. I work in a very customer service based environment so faking a certain personality at work is so much more draining than it is for others. I literally need to rest as soon as I get home. It’s exhausting and embarrassing. I had group photos the other day, I swear I...

That is wonderful sounding!! Could I ask what all helped for you exactly?

Thank you so much!! I definitely won’t ever forget about it. I hope to have more moments like this. I’m so very happy to hear this made you smile!! I am going to continue working towards bringing my inner child out. Such a very positive emotional feeling. A moment frozen in time. Prior to that...

Thank you, yes I’m feeling very positive about it. But also drained after all that. Did you have any moments in your recovery that were exceptionally healing or moments where you felt you were on the positive side of healing? Where you felt a glimpse of what it feels like to be healed?

So I guess I have two questions.. I started somatic mindfulness work a few months ago. Not sure if they have been doing anything really but she reassures me that there’s a lot going on subconsciously still even after the session is complete. I am literally just keeping up with anything that I...

This has been a super embarrassing symptom in the past, I’ve never really brought it up. Although I do not have panic attacks anymore (due to constant dissociation now) I thought of this the other day, it’s like I had felt a glimpse of what it used to feel like for me in my teens. The discomfort...

I’m wondering about this as well... See I’ve had that bfs in my past that have contributed to me being hyper vigilant and socially anxious. Also lots of feelings of guilt/shame for a few weird incidents from childhood but also had more than a few shares of drugs (pot, ecstasy and mushrooms) as...

I was hyper vigilant fir a lot of my life then it went into extreme cases when I got too deep into drugs and into my first relationship. (Both happened same time. Ex was an extreme manipulator, user) I was in extreme hyper vigilance for a number of years, had to quit school, my job and literally...

I too would like to know this. I briefly seen the topic in various movies but not a full movie based on it. Just looking to see others’ comments. Thanks!

You are so very right. Very real message

I hear you! I didn’t have sex because I wanted to fully, I just did it to feel closeness, to please the other. I was a big people pleaser. So I was used to giving my body freely but not for my own pleasure. A lot of those were taking advantage of situations (me being so drunk, young, not fully...

Thank you for your reply!! I’m so sorry that all happened to you! That is all so incredibly awful I hope you are doing well within your healing ❤️ Does it make a difference if he says that he was black out for the entire time? He is already an untrustworthy guy, drug addict, liar and...