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Ironically I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome right at the time I was being traumatized. I think people on the spectrum are more prone to PTSD because they aren't equipped to deal with it in the same way. It sucks

I would grind my teeth when I was a kid and I probably still do. I live alone now and no one hears me but it feels like it. My parents would just tell me to stop doing it. Not helpful at all. Aside from having PTSD now I also have asperger syndrome, which is something you're born with even...

I just did a search because I was wondering if this was a thing. Sadly I was triggered on my birthday the past two years, unfortunately by the same person. So now I'm dreading my birthday next year. This person told me he's not going to do it again but I think why the hell not? It's happened...

I can sort of relate, it's painful. If I see someone going through a similar situation as me I really hurt for them, but I hurt so much that I can't do anything productive to help. I can listen to them or cry with them but I can't do like a therapist or someone and say you need to do this...

Thanks for the thoughts, I needed some encouragement. It helps to know that there are some people out there who get it.

I feel paranoid. I was betrayed by half my family years ago. It almost came out of nowhere. They had never done anything to let me down before. So I feel like if I can't trust my own family I can't trust anybody. Sometimes people will get upset with me over pretty minor things and I start...

"it's never going to happen again" Says who? "just let it go" Screw you, if I knew how I already would have!

I have actually been treated for depression and anxiety right after everything first happened. In some ways I used to be a lot worse off than I am now. I think the biggest issue right now is how to deal with the triggers. At least I figured out that's what it is.

Thank you. I don't think I look like my parents. I have red hair and neither of them did. But you're right. My aunt didn't grieve properly at all. On the surface it was like she didn't care anymore but maybe she was just stuck in denial about what happened. Thankfully the notes don't...

My mom died when I was 19 and my dad died when I was 22. I'm 31 now. I was still living at home when my dad died and I was still in school and didn't have a job so I moved in with my aunt until I could figure something out after I graduated. Everything was "normal" up until around my dad's...

My nightmares didn't start until years after I escaped the abuse. While the abuse was going on I had nightmares about what led up to it. I moved in with my aunt after my parents died and she was emotionally abusive. At the time I was having nightmares about death. Now I have nightmares about...

He does say he's not going to but it can be hard to believe him sometimes. He's told me before that I'm too sensitive but I think he has a better understanding of why now. That's progress.

I don't have a therapist currently although I did have one while the abuse was actually happening. Both my parents had died so at the time that was the more pressing issue. Right now I have a mentor through my church, which is a much more casual relationship but it's still something. I...

Sometimes. Usually if I KNOW for a fact ahead of time that the subject of the message is going to be unpleasant. I'll look at the first couple lines and just delete it. One of my triggers is actually notes being left for me on paper, whether they are typed or handwritten. It scares me to...

That makes sense. My PTSD didn't set in until years after the events. I blocked out the memories of it because it was too painful. But that must not actually resolve it because I started having nightmares and stuff. Like my subconscious couldn't take it or see the point anymore.