I've really healed a lot in the last 9-10 years since I started treatment. My friends and family and therapist mention it so many times. And I realize it too.
Recently, though, I've had suicidal ideations again. I feel like I'm just... done.
I've accomplished everything I set out to do. I...
I'm the sufferer and see myself berating and bullying those around me when I'm triggered. I'm so convinced that I'm horrible and wrong that anyone that supports me must wrong, too. I find I transfer my aggression from the imaginary attack to those who say things that don't make it better...
MMJ is the ONLY thing that gives me relief. Highly recommend. I prefer eating than smoking--longer lasting and better mellow. I can actually do work around the house and yard without having episodes. I've been seeing that ectasy is giving some people relieffor PTSD and mushrooms are for...
Yes! Its about the only thing that give me relief! Highly recommend. Opt for eating it vs smoking. I find its more calming and longer lasting to eat it and certainly saves your lungs. Takes about 1-2 hours for the weed to kick in after eating. Grind it up, cook it on low in butter for a few...
I get a LOT of relief from marijuana. Its about the only thing that consistently gives me relief.
Rain, It might be the strain you are using. Indicas are more calming, less likely to cause paranoia. Look at Leafly.com or talk with a dispensary about your reaction if you are interested in...
I have cPTSD as well. The hard part for me is I can't specifically pinpoint a trauma to work on, just have the feeling of worthlessness you and Mal mentioned. I feel like its only a matter of time before someone sees thru and rejects me. Its only a matter of time before I lash out. I can't be...
I think he started out OK but should his ignorance at the end I f that statement. I think the statement was 'some are strong and can handle it, but some can't handle it". That implies those with PTSD are week. The conjunctions are key.
The worst thing you can do to someone with PTSD is to be...
@joeylittle: yes, I have several psychologists. The one see now suggested I get a psychiatrist again. I'm in a rural town so it means driving a good hour and a half to find one that really understands trauma.
Follow up: I started the Lamictal at 100 mg. No side effects noticed. Feel my ptsd and...
Wait list. I had seen two in recent years—one on my own and another thru a facility. One has passed away so I can only go the the one with the long wait list.
When I get a severe Trigger (with a capital T) I am having less tolerance and patience with living with PTSD and go into suicidal ideation almost immediately. I'm getting more serious about completing it as well--not reaching out, trying three different methods, preparing for what will happens...
@joeylittle and @Panda Bear : I'm on SSRI—Lexapro, Armour Thyroid and a variety of non-prescription support (Vit D, B-complex, Adreno-Mend).
@brae: It is very hard to start a medicine when the dr/patient relationship has been seriously compromised. The whole thing has been a trigger. Its like...
Exactly. And now it is ON MY MEDICAL RECORD at the hospital in a small rural where everyone knows each other. You can delete it. Only strike it but it will always appear there. That is if she will strike it.