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    When is it time to check into a hospital?

    Thank you I'm going to have to go today Really hoping nothing crazy happens. I'm scared of hospitals
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    When is it time to check into a hospital?

    When is it time to check in to a hospital? Hospital trauma is severe for me. Was nearly killed by a nurse who left me isolated for probably two days as a teen. Been continuing to have problems. I'm working in veterinary medicine field and am afraid to stay away long. Boss needs me, even if...
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    For my reference later
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I was raised with the belief that you could only follow one person at a time. My dad didnt want us talking to our mom because he got jealous, so our mom wouldn't talk to us as children. That pedo didn't want me having friends, even with my own siblings and especially not with other adults...
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    To be clear my mom is fine 90% of the time, especially when we aren’t living together. But she’s never felt like a parent and yes I do feel guilty about it but maybe that wasn’t my responsibility. Is this discussion helping me or am I ruminating? I better stop for today
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    And I’m very excited about some plans to fix up an old shed to be a cat shelter :)!
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Positive thought today will be 🤔 well, that job. It should help me in two paths. Moving out and getting a lab position. I’ll be working with the microscope and helping diagnose illnesses.
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Working on my thesis is difficult in this context. I’m sure it won’t be as good as my regular work will be one day. I have a roommate option. I have a new job that I ACTUALLY like and won’t have to resign from in the first week for illegal things. I’m just so worried at this point that...
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I can’t believe I’ve been trying to move for this long. Moving back here was a mistake and my mom’s “help” for moving back in was atrocious and stressful. I should have went with remaining homeless. Guess I could still do that at any time, though.
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I’ve thought about taking the pedo to court before, but I just realize how fruitless that would be. He had an arrest warrant, but he had his brother, either a cop or friends with a cop, make it disappear. My ex didn’t believe me about it, and that shouldn’t matter to me now but it does make...
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    Looking for additional moderators

    I was considering this but am worried I would be overloaded with tasks — I’m starting a new job, living in an unstable environment (as many here do), and am simply worried that I’ll be unsure for a while. Hearing it’s only around an hour a day is promising though. I’ve been a moderator before...
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Thanks man :) hugs back
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I am supposed to take today off from thoughts like these but it's hard today.
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    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Text I sent to someone. Just putting here for reference.
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