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I’ve been in a great group for about a year and a half. It is peer support, with a very great peer facilitator. The boundaries are very clear – we don’t want to trigger each other – and everyone is responsible for keeping the conversation at support rather than depth stuff. The facilitator...

From what you’ve said, she sounds irresponsible. Six sessions is not far in, so you might be best to find someone else. Maybe set up a few appointments to interview different therapists. It’s possible that it’s just not a match, but it’s heartbreaking that she would say she is a ptsd specialist...

Gosh, Seagreen, thanks so much for posting this. I’ve been struggling with it terribly the last few months, and am on the verge of losing my job. First, a big congratulations on noticing it, and admitting it – that often takes me a very long time, usually blaming other people, with some pretty...

I very much appreciate the underlying thought, that, at core, we are responsible for our response to our own emotions, regardless of other people, but also find that it is expressed in an over-simplified way. Aside from the too black/white either/or way it’s expressed, you don’t seem to give...

Thanks Arfie & mil -- the shadows are defintely barking again, wading through a bit of muck, hoping it doesnt last too long, but a good part of it is letting it be what it is and adapting around. Taking care of the kid : - ) Love the dream image of the continent breaking, Arfie, though it's a...

My sense is that symptoms don't necessarily get worse, but that the potential for them to emerge is ~always~ there -- for our whole lives -- and we're better off if we know the signals and have a toolbox to take care of ourselves before they erupt in more destructive ways. For instance, one of...

Hi All – I’m grateful to say that after a 20-year hard stint, I’ve had about eight years of only having smaller flashbacks –where there’s a nagging emotion/dissonance for a few weeks, then me finally noticing it and sitting myself down for a good chunk of quiet time, gentle introspection, and a...

When my symptoms are active I find it just about impossible to contact anyone. This can last for months -- and sometimes years. It feels that all of my energy goes into staying alive. And the symptoms are disconcerting -- I can be snappy, if not fully raged, fragmented, 'absent', and it's very...

Hi SnowTigress, Sorry to say that I agree with what's been said here -- except maybe if there was only one single bad incident? -- otherwise it is a matter of accepting that the symptoms will always be part of our lives. Like diabetes or such: as long as you find ways to take care of it, it...

Thanks for the hello. Cheers to the 18 years, Seaworthy -- it's been 20 years since my ice-block started melting, and I'm still stunned at just how deep and pervasive these injuries are. But slowly appreciating more and more that it's good that there is healing -- not the kind of healing I...

There are a group of different symptoms associated with ptsd. At the same time, how they surface will be as particular as you are. For me, I had been shut down for so long, the first sign of emotion was a deep deep sadness that had nothing to do with what my life was at the time. I felt like I...

Hi Real -- I just joined too. I'm way on the other side of the journey, most of the bad memories walked through, but your post reminded exactly of how I was at the beginning, and how I had been for years before the other symptoms started surfacing with memories. In some ways I find that the most...

Hi Sunnylove, I agree with Amethist, to remember to take care of yourself too, and to keep yourself safe. As a sufferer I know that some of my symptoms are really hard to take -- sometimes I'm horrified at the rage I exude -- and setting good caring boundaries for yourself, as a carer, helps in...

Hi All, This is my first time posting. I feel like I’m coming out of a long stretch of the worst of it, kind of re-entering the realm of normal again, but it still takes me a lot of energy to stay there (in normal). I sought out the ptsd forum now because I’m afraid of dissociating it all away...