Recent content by LoveMyNavyChief!

Hi All. Checking in. No change. It's been several weeks since I've heard anything from him. My texts (once a week now) go unanswered. My heart is still broken. I'm going through all the grief stages, denial, heartbreak, anger, and only acceptance by force. He was the best man Ive ever...

Thanks. For the perspective, the honesty and for the understanding. And for being here. I'll survive, I always have. This just hurts worse than anything I can recall. And I've had a pretty f**ked up time of it- I'm still suffering from childhood traumas of my own. I'm kind of numb I...

Yes he is now done. He says he is in a place that he cannot deal with me or my sadness or fears regardless of it being resultant of his ptsd. He says if I leave him alone we may be able to be friends in the future. This was the man I was going to marry and share the rest of my life with. I...

So the text he agreed to send came yesterday. It said "I'm still here. Nothing has changed". I responded, told him I loved him and thank you for texting and asked him to text me again in one week. He has not responded. I am lost. I don't understand how one can share a deep love, devote...

Thank you. I needed to hear that. Yes. It is the hardest thing I've ever done.

There is hope, right???!!?

Okay. We had the therapy. He needs space. He wanted nothing ever again - I broke a major trust with him, I emailed his therapist and he was infuriated because he said it was the only safe place he has in the world- I didn't understand or realize that he would react that way- I only wanted to...

Ugh. Yes, I've had a couple moments -Sunday actually- where he's happy to be with me- and then he goes into darkness again. It's a roller coaster. I've had to accept that and it's damn hard because I am pure emotion. To be raised up to heaven again and then dropped back to hell is--just...

Thank you Snowflakes and caligirl! It's makes a difference to know you're there. I will check out the group as well.

Okay so tonight I'm angry. I'm sick of feeling like this. I'm so sad! I barely get responses to my reaching out to him. He's so angry-at me! He has indicated that he will go to a therapy session with me to my therapist next week. At this moment I don't want to go. I don't want to hurt...

Hello Hooah84 First of all let me say THANK YOU, thank you for being out there on the front lines and protecting us!!! I too work for a state division. Mine is not law enforcement. We have an Equal Opportuniy Office, perhaps yours can help. Mine didn't though... Because workers comp is...

Stay strong!

Hi Maddi Thank you for responding. I'm so, so sorry that things are this way. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for being as strong as you are. I hope the pain is subsiding as time passes. Again, my heart goes out to you, you aren't alone out here. It hurts. Wishing you continued...

Hi Maddi Curious to know how things are going? You posted in December - how have these last couple of months been?

Do what feels comfortable for you. Good response to give yourself some time to digest this. The answer will come. Thumbs up!