Recent content by maryiscontrary

Beautiful! Thanks so much for sharing! This is exactly what I'm trying to get at.

"I have way bigger fish than you could ever be." In my definition this is an expression of a self defensive mechanism of an ego. you are certainly welcome to your opinion, I keep saying this. I've probably said this about 10 times just today. but this looks quite disrespectful to me. "You’re...

I have given likes to every single person on this thread, regardless of the egotism and snarkiness LOL! This thread was only about my experience, your mileage may vary. But it seems like I stepped on some egos as well! I'm just saying that after many years of trying to medicate myself, many...

Yes this is classical textbook. Thanks for sharing again as this was at least 50 messages back.

Can you point exactly to where I was painting with a broad stroke? I was referring a number of times to my experiences in the Amazon here in South America. And ego is very much open to interpretation. For me , it is the classical conditioning of the autonomic nervous system, along with the...

Did you p.m. them to me? If so I never got anything in my inbox? please send them again! Well you're certainly welcome to your opinion. I totally respect that. But I think that it's rather ignorant to assume that I am on a Carlos Castaneda trip and that my personal Journey indicates a...

And yes it was disrespectful to imply that I'm on some Carlos Castaneda trip. That is projection. Plus Carlos Castaneda had anglophile North American biases and was very self-indulgent. I'm just talkin about my own experience. And you can take it or leave it as well.

I welcome all of your opinions! this is the part that I found disrespectful. "I worry, as others have pointed out, that ego dissolution may actually be suicidal ideation and not some Carlos Castaneda psychedelic enlightenment trip." I find that this is just not the case. And I am working on...

Again, a little respect would be nice. Although I respect your opinion, I have taught over a thousand nurses and doctors physiology, pathology, Immunology, pharmacology, advanced microbiology, and so forth. If you want to we can get into a debate. But I'm not going to throw insults at you. I'm...

UPDATE I know it's been a few weeks since I've posted and I really appreciate it everybody's support and feedback in my posts. Number one, it is been roughly seven weeks since I quit my marijuana habit of 27 years. Like a bunch of phlegm that's being broken up, I'm dissociating a lot less. But...

First off, I would appreciate just a little bit more respect. I don't didn't want to bring this up , but I do have a PhD in human physiology and Neuroscience so I'm not exactly talking out my rectum whole :-). Now, what I am speaking of in this realm it's not really Theory , I'm sure you can...

I think you misunderstand me. It's not necessarily about sitting and staring at a wall. It's about not engaging executive functioning when doing activities, thus possibly allowing damaged circuits in the frontal lobe to reconstruct themselves. this may not be the same for everyone, but for...

Wow! Thank you so very much!

The Ayahuasca in the San Pedro we're just sort of the beginning of it. along with hanging out with the indigenous, it's like I got a good taste of the relief. But I still had this discomfort deep inside of me, and was still plagued buy a boat load of terrible symptoms. But it got me out of the...

Thank you for your awesome response! Like I said earlier in this thread, which is getting awesomely long and involved, which is completely cool, that I use hex rhetorically. I could just say bad luck. Bad luck seems to follow people who have suffered childhood trauma oh, and the more trauma, it...