Recent content by Mercy Joy

It’s incredible the way the mind can cope when faced with dire situations!! To be able to create parts for just a specific smell, wow! For such specific, little things. It’s so sad that she endured such horrific abuse that she had a need to do that but how wonderfully smart of her brain to break...

We stopped the trauma work and started doing a lot of work on internal communication and building trust. Trust is key. Between ourselves and with our therapist. We’ve been focused on learning what each part needs for self care, what their triggers are, what each one needs to regulate, and lots...

Oh goodness, when we got a concussion we went into a spin. Alters were confused and switching all over the place. Our brain seemed to run really slow even though the switching was fast. It was a mess. It took 2 weeks before we started to get back to normal.

My therapist started doing things a good bit differently after she diagnosed me with DID. (She had been treating me for PTSD) And things got so much easier and better when she did.

It’s normal :) Some of my parts I know better than others. Some I know their names and some I don’t. Some I know their likes and dislikes and some are still a mystery. It’s a process. I have 19 parts that I know of right now. I know a lot about 8 of them and only a little about the others. A...

I almost always see something different any time I look into a mirror. It scares the mess out of me most of the time. Most of the time I see somebody completely different staring back at me. Sometimes I see large, green cat eyes. Sometimes, a dead, robotic looking, emotionless being. Sometimes...

That was a great analogy, Swift :) And yes, the media is stupid about DID. My therapist gave me some wonder books and solid information to read. It’s a difficult diagnosis but it’s not what most people think. I hope that you will achieve a deeper level of healing now with a correct diagnosis. ?

Thank you all for your responses. It’s comforting to read others’ experiences. Since posting this a couple months ago, my symptoms exploded and I finally stopped denying what was really going on. I was able to be up front and honest with myself and my therapist. I’ve since been diagnosed with...

I’ve had the room turn strange colors on a few different occasions but it was a long time ago. Recently, during therapy, I was staring down at my hands and they started turning crazy vivid colors. Yellow, pink, green and such. It was so weird. I felt extremely spacy and was having a hard time...

I mean, seriously, thank you! I’ve got so much clicking and making sense right now!

Wow, that makes so much sense! Thanks for replying!

Fortunately, my therapist is very patient, laid back and open minded. So, do you think that the freezing up is because a person needs to say something that they’re unable to say, thus making them stuck?

Does anybody else struggle with going catatonic in therapy? Or having different parts of your body freeze up and not be able to move them? If so, have you found anything to help get past it and gain back your control?

Could be DDNOS, DID, structural dissociation, CPTSD or anything like that. But just remember, the most important thing is to live your truth. As you live your truth, the specifics will continue to come out and you’ll be able to continue healing.

Dissociation is a beast like that. I’ve run away screaming from my husband, having no idea who he was for a bit. We’d be in bed just being sweet or maybe being intimate or maybe watching a movie or whatever. And suddenly, some way he moved or something random would change and I’d take off...