Not sure if this is where this belongs, but oh well.
Last night my partner and I were in his car, parked in a similar spot to where I had been sexually assaulted. A moment of intimacy triggered a full blown flashback, the longest and most vivid I had ever had. I saw what I had been wearing at the time of the assault, and the man who did it to me instead of my partner. It was like I was there for a long time, reliving what had happened. According to my partner, all of this occurred within 30 seconds tops. He said that I then apologized and put my head down for a few minuets before he could get me to leave the car and go sit on the porch. He also said that I had been looking in his car for a lighter before he got me to leave, but I don’t know what that could have had anything to do with. We sat on the porch for evidently 15 minuets or so, he said I was rambling about what I could have done better, how I could have gotten out of the situation. He said that I looked up at him after a bit and asked his name, and told him that only my boyfriend wears tags after noticing his (he’s in the army), he gave me his tags and I read the name as asked if that was him. Evidently I asked three times. I remember this through a blur, and I know at the time I could not for the life of me place who he was. After about 20 minuets I calmed down and was back in my right mind again, after which he was supportive but hurt and scared that I didn’t remember who he was. I am terrified. I vaguely remember last night, like watching fragments through a fog. I could have sworn the man who assualted me was there, that I was in his truck. I’m horrified that I couldn’t place who the man I love was. Is this a thing that happens? Do other people experience it? And even moreso, how do I fix this? I’m so scared that I’m going crazy, or that the strain I’m putting will be detrimental to my relationship. Is this a real thing that people experience?
Last night my partner and I were in his car, parked in a similar spot to where I had been sexually assaulted. A moment of intimacy triggered a full blown flashback, the longest and most vivid I had ever had. I saw what I had been wearing at the time of the assault, and the man who did it to me instead of my partner. It was like I was there for a long time, reliving what had happened. According to my partner, all of this occurred within 30 seconds tops. He said that I then apologized and put my head down for a few minuets before he could get me to leave the car and go sit on the porch. He also said that I had been looking in his car for a lighter before he got me to leave, but I don’t know what that could have had anything to do with. We sat on the porch for evidently 15 minuets or so, he said I was rambling about what I could have done better, how I could have gotten out of the situation. He said that I looked up at him after a bit and asked his name, and told him that only my boyfriend wears tags after noticing his (he’s in the army), he gave me his tags and I read the name as asked if that was him. Evidently I asked three times. I remember this through a blur, and I know at the time I could not for the life of me place who he was. After about 20 minuets I calmed down and was back in my right mind again, after which he was supportive but hurt and scared that I didn’t remember who he was. I am terrified. I vaguely remember last night, like watching fragments through a fog. I could have sworn the man who assualted me was there, that I was in his truck. I’m horrified that I couldn’t place who the man I love was. Is this a thing that happens? Do other people experience it? And even moreso, how do I fix this? I’m so scared that I’m going crazy, or that the strain I’m putting will be detrimental to my relationship. Is this a real thing that people experience?
