Recent content by MKEPaul

Brandi Carlisle "That Wasn't Me."

Definitely empathize with the (1) strong emotions when scheduled things go wrong, and (2) the reactive responses to make it all right again. *No judgment of you implied in my choice of adjectives.* I have an employer, 7000 employees, that kept batching my paycheck. Addiction and money issues...

The daily sorta zen breakfast. Same things, mindfully placed, and then the morning news...which reminds me that my worst days are purty durned good, compared to most. Greek yogurt with maple syrup, blueberries and granola. Cherry juice. Espresso. Side of gratitude.

I'm no expert, except my own experience. It seems to me that there are many, many, many right ways to heal. We get to judge that for ourselves. What works for one person might never work for us. What didn't work for us today might be the Breakthrough moment tomorrow. We're not following a map...

My 12 step experience for gambling was a mixed bag. On the one hand, it was good to have some fellow travelers on that path. Especially when they reflect the "stories" we tell others and ourselves to permit future addictive acts. But when support devolved into judgmentalism, perfectionism, and...

This, right here, is proof of survival success. This is agency. This is calmly and surely navigating our past and our future into the now. After x-thousands of truly good therapy, it all comes down to this--here and now.

I agree and I understand. Our interaction today, your clear mind and gentle words are proof that you are "good enough," that your sharing wasn't just brave, it allowed me to reflect, to breathe, and to know that I'm not alone in this. Thanks.

Every single day. I looked up the origins of "weird." Germanic word, it originally meant something like "fate" or "destined." Implied unexpected. No connotation of *aberration* like today. For me, and this is an ongoing, effin hard thing, is to accept, forgive, and cheerlead that "weirdo"...

Excellent observation. This is the difference bn 'having' a flashback and being run over by one. It's the affirmation "this did happen then, it is not happening now, and I am no longer the victim of this experience." My tactile restabilizing activity is to walk my apartment and touch my...

I've heard that let it go/move on thing since childhood. This may not work for you and I offer it bc it was my best way to move *forward*: the damn demons go with me, dead or alive. They are my formative past, for good ill. What they do not get is rights to the steering wheel, the emotional...

Much of your post suggests you aren't trusting yourself, the value of your lived experiences, your earned wisdom. You also express a *legit, important* need for a partner who can care for you--and then describe a man who, by your lights, isn't maybe doing a great job caring for himself? Total...