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Thank you so much for your answer and understanding.. your words soothed my fears a little bit With the doses I can at least do my daily tasks and responsibilities reasonably as well, and calm down my constant state of anxiety. Still feeling of hovering in a limbo, but in a slightly more...

Hi thanks for your answer, (I see my double post disappeared not sure if I should still answer here but here it goes) Yes I tried, and its not working. I don't sleep, when I do nightmares, constant anxiety up to almost hyper ventilating. No concentration at all, I'm forgetting words even. Of...

I suffer from c-ptsd and went through a new extremely traumatizing event last week. After a talk with my psychologist and doctor today. I have gotten daily Oxazepam prescribed. I had some stocked already for occasional use and emotional emergencies and never used more than 3-4 per month. I've...

Thank you so much for your kind words Canticle. Its almost unexplainable to anyone who hasn't experienced it. But as much as its a relief to feel recognition, it is so sad to see such similar story. Same goes to aut555. However much I have loved my ex, and still do somewhere (do I..?), it felt...

Thank you for your words and the reference, its interesting to read about trauma bonding. My psychologist did refer to co-dependence already when speaking about the relationship with him. I did have non dependent relationships as well, where my partner was more or less dependent on me. I just...

I don't even know at this moment what to write I already let him go, yes out of love, but I did. Why does he seem to seek to destroy me. I know I shouldn't try to understand but my life seems to depend on it. I've been alone for months already, I was just starting to cope. He pulled me back...

Thank you so much Almost crying again feeling the kindness in your words. But I feel just empty and cold inside. I want to talk but want to forget this is really happening. Trying to justify his words.. tell people.. his family.. but what will they think of me. the weak hysterical person he says...

hey Thank you so much for writing I woke up in the middle of the night after heavy nightmares into a full blown anxiety attack Still questioning myself if he might be right with an intense feeling of disgust deep inside I feel murdered

Hey.. I'm so sorry for my silence but it has been a roller-coaster and I could not get myself to do or write anything. He broke off the relationship with me during a short visit to our home, and moved back to his home country. Because he needed space, he had enough, he wanted to be alone. As I...

Someone with such disorders having psychology training and knowledge, oh my that must have been so hard on you.. I can only try to imagine.. I genuinely got the shivers thinking of it. I've seen flashes of hatred in him.. but the worst has been his silence. His dismissal, absence, lack of care...

Dear Shh Be so proud of yourself you managed to get out. My heart goes out to you what you have gone through Abusive relationships almost never start abusive, it can so gradually that you don't even realize what madness you are in until its too late. Don't know when this happened, but it...

Wrote this yesterday but couldn't get myself to post it. I have the same as you @Werewoman I always try to understand why he pulls away, that being such a huge trigger on itself already. Its such a delicate balance between giving space and and asking for something you need from someone, like...

In an ideal world, no parent should be reliant on their adolescent children. You are already 18 you are still very young and I can only imagine this is not something that only started recently. You love your parents, unconditionally, and caring for them comes so natural that often you don't even...

Hi everyone In these days of loneliness your words of welcome and replies give me a warm feeling inside. You don't even know me but still take the time to write. It means more to me than I can express. Mood swings are frequent at the moment, I've learned to be strong, to be in survival mode all...

hi Zoogal, Thanks for your answer I'm not a psychologist, but what I understood from mine, is that people with Narcissism, even though doing everything they can to appear as amazing, successful and admirable as they can, do not think highly of themselves, at all. They are in fact very insecure...