Recent content by MoonGoddessHeart

Your memories are real.

@The Albatross No, I have had similar experiences to you. I have terrifying flashbacks that make me feel like I am going absolutely crazy because I can't believe something so terrifying has happened to me. I am in therapy now... I suggest you talk to a therapist and start working through some of...

@TexCat Sexual abuse is as sexual abuse... Yes, it is a sad, horrible reality.

Have you ever felt death Trickling down the inside of your leg As a hand placed so fervently in your groin Flashback Where did my legs go? Spiritual paralysis. I am paralyzed A purgatory between the breathing and the dead I can move from one side to another But in water my...

In my sexual fantasies as a child, happened all the time and I was always dancing for a man and bending before him.

I had memories as a young 7 year old of fantasizing about being a sex slave. I think it was because of my abuse. Now when I first started having sex... I have submissive fantasies again and like the idea of a man degrading and abusing me. Like I want to be a perfect housewife that really turns...

@EveHarrington After my last trigger, I got what I would consider to be violent and completely emotional. I ended up in the hospital. It was absolutely terrible. Afterwards, I tried breaking up with my boyfriend because I couldn't handle the stress. Looking back on it... It is sad because we've...

See... I always had the memory of the man coming into the closet but I completely repressed the other stuff. Everything... All of the abuse. I remember when I had the flashback... I was like woah, I haven't remembered this in a really, really long time.

I have heard of the notion of false memories. Are false memories real? I always thought I might have been sexually abused as a child after I developed PTSD for two sexual assaults that happened at ages 18 and 19. When I developed PTSD, I started doing EMDR. One day during a flashback, I got an...

@Ragdoll Circus Thank you! That meant so much. I feel bad because everyone around me is exhausted by my trauma. Thank you for your help. It meant so much.

My PTSD has also made me super crazy.

What is IMHO? I see... I want to stop being so easily distressed but I feel like sexual abuse is all I can think about since my nightmares and body memories. I feel like I am going crazy.

Can someone help me?

I have been having PTSD symptoms ever since my sexual assault when I was in College. However, I have been in ample amounts of therapy and the PTSD hasn't gotten better. In fact, the more therapy I go to the worse the PTSD gets. My dad was an alcoholic and at times physically abusive. I have...

I keep having dreams of the guys who attacked me in high school. I have dreams where I am telling them what they did to me and they don't believe me. I have dreams where they're tormenting me and bullying me. And I have dreams where I am drunk, helplesss and sick. They always wanted to see...