Recent content by Nikie

1. Wondering what is it with this thread to make me always feel i want to post here . 2. Had a great scout camp this weekend all my preparations was good felt nice seeing 51 kids so happy.. 3. Why do i feel suicidal after a nice time like that. 4. Just wish I was not here anymore 5. Never...

Thinking of everybody and the struggles they face .. ((( huggs))) :hug:

1. Thinking of my kids:cry: 2.feeling So sad about them. All the bad I allowed :sorry: 3. Do I ever have to get up again:mask: 4. Is it better to be a dead mother .or better to be one that's their but not there .. " die ligte is aan maar niemand is tuis nie!!!!" Lights are on but nobody is...

1. This is a big question bothering me as well? 2. Wish my house can stay clean over weekends 3. Why do I need to tangle along to parents in law.. for a family dinner.. 4. My cousin and only person i trusted posted my secrets on Facebook. On an open discussion. 5. There is no way I will...

1. Wonder how I could help @Cashew with his baby steps with the the other thing ? 2. So nice to see the sun shine again ( in my heart) Fear it would get so far again? 3. Thinking of @jaccat and her loss making me sad thinking of my daughter and the loss of her dog when a pofadder bit it.. 4...

1. Having a mind fight to not go to my room today 2. Panicking my computer is of .. Cos of the electricity that blow up last night 3. My thouts keep going back to the dream and I'm struggling to go else where (in my thoughts) 4. Have to look happy and like nothings wrong hubby is home.. 5...

Hey @Cashew Happy International Women's Day.. Thank you for all your support you are a remarkable woman !!

Happy International Women's day @Ms Spock Wow you are one heck of a lady!!! In my country there is an advertisement of a Bunny playing drums .. All the Bunny's wit normal battery's fall out very quickly. But you definitely have Eveready batteries in.... you just keep going!! :roflmao:

Happy International Women's day @ladee I love your stile!:tup: :hug:

Happy International Women's day @Aarow Thank you for the kindness you showed me!! The love you sent me And the patients for keeping contact with me..:hug:

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Pencil sorry if I have said anyting to offend you or make you worry .. These are my fears and triggers So its got noting to do with PTSD if you haven't been on the burgerband when your best friends dad were killed in front of his eyes and you listen for 4 hours how they called for help before...

I have made contact with my aunt and they say things are the same they will go on till the Mayor of the town with her people leave they say they are currupted .. So I guess its okey I dunno why they burn of bread trucks and cow feed ...its food supply. Its crazy .. We are save aarow thank...

Saying this for the first time in my life but its so real and fighitlg it all day !! I have been struggling for years not to be addictive ...so far so good .. I just crave to have some mint alcohol anatying will do. .. Urghhh somedays I walk pass a shop selling alcohol and I have to just...

((((:hug: ))). Jnean I dunno what to say to you because I can not relate to that .. But I can offer you a warm hug .. If okey with you?..you are doing great by doing the grounding and stuff ..:tup: Hope you feel better soon!!