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Nothing new like that. The only thing is an increase in stress and routine changes, but geez, this response would be way overkill if so.

Sometimes when it happens, I have felt like I'm back in time living in my home state. There's not usually a nightmare piece attached, just literally a memory block about where I am, when I am, and who else is in the room. I've had a few frontal lobe seizures before and have wondered if this is...

This is legit one of the scariest experiences for me. It's happened several times in the past year and occurred again last night after a long reprieve. I awoke shortly after falling asleep next to my husband at home. I didn't know who he was, where I was, or what time frame I was in. I literally...

I do. Thanks for asking. There is no reason for me to leave the house tonight that wouldn't be alarming to family. I also have a T. Just have felt beyond grounding. I'm curious how people "shake off" these thoughts and "snap out" of dissociation.

As much as I don't necessarily "want" to do it, I'm having intrusive thoughts and a feeling that I'm about to black out and act on them without my control. Like dissociation and meeting the breaking point. If that makes sense. I'm having difficulty not thinking about falling into a trance...

@Friday and @RussellSue and @ruborcoraxxx (There was a lot of communication between everyone, which I am appreciative of! Has given me much to think about and also been a comfort :) So, I'm responding to everyone together. I'm glad that you caught that I'm aware that transferring the mom issues...

Thank you. I hear what you're saying. A lot of why I have struggled to simply say it is not wanting to make her feel responsible. (I know that she is not.) I am virtually no contact with my mother who has BPD. I don't think that repairable and it wouldn't fix what has happened anyway. Scaling...

@grit Thanks for hanging in for the discussion. It is actually reassuring. I have a hard time talking about these things out loud, although I do to some degree in therapy. I say, "some degree," because I always get to therapy and there are other things to address, I chicken out, or it doesn't...

I am in therapy. It's not about changing her. I want to process this myself and be healthier. Odds are, I'm not "over-texting" or anything, but I am hyper aware and fearful that my gage on that is off. I respect her right to how she interacts, responds, or doesn't respond to texts and keep in...

I do want to clarify that I see her as a mother figure not a gf, but it seems that similar rules apply.

@Deanna What if I scare her away or deter her? I do like her. I want to cry thinking about it. It's hard to feel so tied up and unable to communicate for fear of rejection.

Having had a mother with BPD, experiencing sexual abuse, rape, and psych abuse has been so challenging. I don't know how to trust in relationships. Being an adult and feeling unmet nurturing needs has been too. I long for the tenderness of a mom. Understanding. Being known and accepted for who I...

I've had a disorganized attachment style since childhood and because of my personality type, I struggle in being able to trust and connect and then fearing "messing it up," and ruining a relationship that feels good. Friendships in particular. Sometimes I get anxious and wonder if everything in...

@Weezley and @Survivor3 Sorry, I panicked and dropped off for few days. Withdrew. Thank you for taking the time to respond and ask questions. I was in that picture, bc it was a special day that I did visit for. I'm angry bc of the fakeness and it feels like a lie and being used. I have a decent...

In the pits for the past couple of days. Although nearly zero contact with my toxic mother, she managed to put me into some drama, lying about things I said (which I haven't spoken with her to say). I got a message from a family member, who I don't speak with regularly at all, upset with me...