Recent content by Prough

That button metaphor really opened my eyes. I always read about people overflowing and exploding and it didnt click for me. In nearly a decade of suffering from ptsd, I can only recall a handfull of times when I broke down; always with tears never anger. By and large the things that terrify me...

A while back I came to the conclusion that most of my feelings are evil, and hell bent on ruining my life. I still try to feel them, but I recognized I needed supervision. I turned to my support network. Those people that know me, better than I do. If I'm up all night, feeling bad, I go to...

Sorry for the late reply. Initialy I came at this looking for something social to do. I think that's just the lonelyness. Kind of like dreaming about steak when you're starving. I've been looking over your guys' suggestions, I think a steak would just give me a tummy ache. I'm not ready to...

You know you guys are the reason I keep paying my isp so much. I appreciate your enthusiasm, but a few years back I moved out to the country because I couldn't handle most of those things. I think our library has like 75 books. I have tried some of these things, however with some levels of...

So many sugguestions:) I had considered classes before. They have dancing classes for pretty cheap. I never liked dancing but to be honest it would probably be good just to break up my routine. I initially ruled it out. I felt guilty for occupying more of my gf's time. I should talk to her...

Thank you for your reply :) I do have hobbies. I kind of set em up to keep people out. I get nervous that if I spend too much time around too many people I might wig out. I used to try those video games on the internet. After a few weeks it would always turn to shit so I kinda stopped trying...

Hi guys. I've been suffering from ptsd for a while now. I've recently turned a mind to fixing this issue and I'm hitting a roadblock. I am so bored. It really seems trivial but at the moment, it's driving me nuts. I know the loop. Something minor happens. I just sit on it because I think...

Not sure if you noticed, but you are conflating two very distinct questions. Namely, has life been worth living, and should I keep doing it. If your life was not worth living, that would only justify already having killed yourself. Seeing how you are still alive it looks like you have the...

How do you eat an elephant? A big old elephant kicking you out of your home. Stomping around in your brain. Casting confusion all over the place. Politics, and stress. Fear, and hate. You cant take on ptsd, look how big it is! But it's got little toes. You can't just beat ptsd without...

Hi smile(love that name) "Do you have any plans to harm yourself or others" always translated in my head to"would you like to be locked in a rubber room today". Sounds like that is hitting you too. It does suck but it makes senses. You can deal with depression with a forum, much like you...

Thanks for checking on me guys I went to the va and set everything up. If everything goes as planned I should have my first appointment in the first week of december. I think the first appointment will be with a general practicing pysician. I guess they will refer a shrink after that. I'm...

I'm so sorry to hear that raj. Dogs can be just as susceptible, and in many cases more so, to traumas like these. It's good she didn't get physically hurt, but it sounds like she's messed up in the head atm. Having a strong home with love and support will really help her work through this...

Can you handle the bus? Can you afford uber? I have trouble driving too, makes every problem soo nuch more annoying. I'm hoping they release those self driving cars soon.

I filed a ptsd claim with ssdi in 2014. At that time the defenition of ptsd was slightly different then it is now. I think you have to prove a stressor now. It doesn't have to be court documents though. If a doctor says you do have a stressor, and you submit documentation to that effect...

Congratulation giving him his walking papers. I know that's hard to do. Especially if he's being a dick. Looks like you have got all sorts of feelings right now. Proud, lonely, angry, sad, confused... No matter what you do it looks like every man is scum and you'll be alone forever because...