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I filed my case with the VA about six years ago. They "lost" my records at least 3 times. Then, they moved the case from my area to Waco, TX to get a decision done. When they moved the case, they did not get any of the records including the buddy letter from a fellow soldier attesting to the...

You need a new therapist. Stat. They're the hired help, not your best friend. It's really hard for all of us to cope with that concept. To make the therapy workable, you have to like them. BUT, you don't want to like them so much that you start pulling punches in your sessions about your...

Hello Sunset, A lot of practitioners will tell you that they understand PTSD and trauma. I have recently talked to one that told me, "Oh yeah. We have to take CEUs every year to keep our licensing. I took a couple of courses on PTSD." Riiiiight. I trust you with my frailties because you...

Hi Muse, I started a thread here about Memory Issues and Vitamins. But, what I've got in that post is basically the template I use. I've been off all meds except an occasional benadryl at night to sleep for about 2.5 years. There are moments when it is desperately hard, and I can't stop...

For those of you who notice that the medications have taken a toll on your ability to hold things in short term memory, I'm putting my vitamin/supplement recommendations here. It could be my age, but the meds seemed to make memories a lot more hazy. Good for resolving flashbacks, bad for...

I was on Geodon for about 3-4 years, mixed with some other things. I have a type of depression that wasn't adjusted with any of the typical antidepressants. Most of the typical ones tend to boost serotonin/dopamine. Geodon, from what I can tell, lowers dopamine early in the cycle, then boosts...

PTSD's main initial creation agent is fear. Fear pushes all our buttons internally and without a proper outlet, it creates a monster in our heads. Yes, PTSD can be created from basic training. Things do go wrong in training all the time. And there are bad leadership choices. I'm concerned...

...When last we left our hero, she was seriously in trouble. It's been a while since I updated. To continue the saga above, I left work on FMLA leave for roughly 2.5 months. I came back to work in November. The first few weeks that I was out I couldn't see how I could possibly handle going...

Hi Iam, All of us PTSD sufferers seem to have exactly this same reaction at some point in the therapy when our resistance is rising to the things that therapy is dragging out into the open. Believe me, there isn't one of us that wants to go through these memories. The one thing that I've heard...

You keep having dreams of the ex and his abuse because your trust was broken. Now that you are in another relationship, you're probably still internally waiting for the "other shoe to drop" so to speak. I would strongly suggest calling a therapist and making an appointment to discuss the...

Thanks, Bluecat. The left-hand writing did freak me out. But it was a fairly simple message: "Are you there? Are you listening?" Written about 3 times. Shaky writing, but very very legible. While I do know that because I know the letter shapes I can write them with the left, this was...

Lots of things to add to this, but I'm still whirling. As soon as I wrote that post, I lost the ability to read, write, follow the plot in a book/movie/tv show, and generally became pretty numb. One of the therapy sites mentioned that DID therapy can involve trying to write with your left...

I have no idea where this thread belongs, so I'll put it here. I just did a 3 week stay inpatient in the trauma unit of the hospital due to my suicidal tendencies and the self-injury behavior that had hit a peak. In week 1 of the stay, I became obsessively compulsive about keeping my bed...

Obviously I'm not meant to reply to this message tonight. I've typed it out twice and deleted it by accident with a keystroke twice now. The Cliff Notes version: read up on grounding techniques. Try to pace yourself in the inner delving. You're emotionally flooding, not at all crazy. Talk...

Hi Bluecat, It sounds like food issues were a theme in your household when you were young. Are you in therapy right now? Is the therapist beginning to get you to probe at some deeply uncomfortable areas? And have you talked to your therapist about this food avoidance? This is a type of food...