Recent content by Quinn17

Yes, I left my job last week. Well I didn't leave. I went on disability. The diabetes is a possible explanation, but I had my blood taken at the endocrinologist a month ago and everything checked out okay. I'm going to start a day program for trauma soon and I'm hoping they have a doctor I...

I wake up every day and I'm so confused I don't know what day it is or what time it is sometimes I can't tell if I'm really awake and sometimes I feel like I've already been awake for hours like I remember having conversations but they never really happened. After some internet research it...

@Muse , @Solara , & @Hashi Before these 5 years with my current therapist, I was seeing another therapist for 9 years. I'm 28 - I started therapy when I was 14. My first therapist did really nothing but make things worse in the 9 years I saw her. After the switch I was finally able to get help...

@Muse - I've been seeing my therapist for 5 years. @Solara - I just am afraid that after I start talking that I won't be able to stop it all from coming out - thats what I meant by afterwards. Kind of wonder what will happen after it starts. I also think I have a preoccupation with the...

This feels like I'm asking a simple question, but it's not. Why talk about the details of trauma? Why tell my therapist about the bad things? What happens afterwards? What changes? Does my brain change? Does more exposure correlate with less anxiety? All I can think of is why? A part of me...

Yesterday in therapy my therapist made a list and then I color coded them, red, orange or green. Kind of like a stop-light. No words are really green - but now she knows how they rank in my mind. We're gonna add more words as they come up during sessions and such. It worked well :tup:

I am considering making a list of scary words, bad words. I don't say them and I don't like when my therapist says them. I decided I want to make a list. I want to make a list and then rank them on how bad they are. I'm surprised that I can't find anything online like this for trauma peeps...

I have always had dissociative issues. Growing up I told my mother I could see myself from the corner of the room. "sure sweetie, me too." In first grade, I told my teacher that I couldn't feel my feet. I told her when I walked I felt like I was going forward on roller skates. She sent me to the...

What I mean is, could there not be a specific thing I am flashing back to? I did not have a recognizable trigger or memory, I just started to cry hysterically. Ill explain a little more: Friday night I had a situation that is vaguely reminiscent in theme to my trauma. I saw one of the...

Oh yes, I did consider that. I should have written that I will be bringing the papers to my therapists office to look at it with her. Thank you for your thoughtfulness. I am preparing for it to be hard. I know that things might get scary but at this point I feel afraid all the time. I am...

Hi -- I'm going to pick up medical records from my pediatrician on Monday. I'm 27 and when I was a little kid, I was sexually abused. I have scattered memories and feelings most of which I don't really understand. I have a pretty solid memory (not really negative) of being in the doctors...

Hi. Not sure what I should say. Sometimes when I have to tell someone about it for the first time (doctor, therapist, etc) -- I can't. Which I think is what is happening now. Bad things happened to me when I was little. Childhood sexual abuse. I'm a researcher type and I wanted to join...