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So I've been seeing my therapist for a really long time and I like her and trust her and everything, but I'm really really nervous to go see her this week. Last night I had a dream that she raped me. I don't know how to handle it. I'm not upset with her at all and I don't really feel like I...

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the idea of suicide. I'm not going to kill myself, but it's a constant thought. I've been sort of ignoring it and hoping it would go away. Obviously that hasn't worked out very well. I know that I need to be honest with her but I'm worried about how she...

So I've been having flashbacks for a while. They were always the same: I feel like the abuse is actually happening during the flashback. I tense up, I shake, I pretty much freak out. It's kind of like a panic attack plus the actual sensations of being assaulted. Up until about a week ago those...

Thanks for the advice Sarah. We haven't worked on grounding techniques at all because like I said I had never had a flashback in front of her and I don't think she knew how bad the flashbacks can get. She thought it was mostly just dreams about what happened. But I will definitely come up with a...

I know I literally just posted a thread here this morning but something else has been really bothering me. In our session we were talking about the abuse and that I need to forgive myself for what happened an move passed the guilt. I know I was just a kid, and I was scared, but I feel like I...

So I've just started talking about the details of my past abuse. These last couple of weeks have been really rough. This morning in therapy I was talking and I was at about a six (my t has me rate my anxiety). Then out of nowhere I had a flashback. Not bad. Just felt really panicked. Like I was...

So I just recently, I mean very recently, started talking about the details of the sexual abuse with my T. She's great and I like her a lot but I still feel so awkward telling her about the abuse at all. There's always awkward silence after I finish telling her something. I know it's intentional...

Thanks Laurie. Sometimes I just feel like I'm trapped in a room with this huge secret and I don't know how to get out, if that makes any sense?

I have been seeing a therapist for quite some time and I really like her but I just can't seem to tell her the details of the abuse. I've tried and I can't find the words and I get panicked. I can feel her staring at me and I don't know what to say. I feel like I need to tell someone or I will...

I actually haven't yet. Honestly, I'm still struggling to even tell her that I want to talk about the details. I've given her background info on what I want to talk about. But we haven't gone any further. I'm thinking about writing a letter of sorts telling my t tht I want to tell her details...

So I've been seeing my therapist off and on for about two years. I told her about a year and a half ago that I had been sexually abused for eight years by a family member. But then I stopped seeing her for awhile (insurance issues) and now I'm back. Anyway, we haven't really talked much about...