Recent content by Russell2017

You are welcome. I fear being judged when I write in someone's mind or elsewhere and sometimes of being triggered so I know all about that. I am glad I was of some help and wish there was a lot more I could do. I am here for you still. I also hope some of the other other posts are helpful to...

The only thing I can say is I can relate to every bit of that. I know it constently feels like the end is near and that no body can begin to understand but I understand. People seem to always brush it under the carpet after they soon have enough of you. Just know your understood at least by me...

Same around here. It seem like they are telling you to try to kill yourself again so they can take it seriously. Its kind of like try 3 more times so we can care and give a damn.

Yes I do. You feel like a lone fighter on a never ending battlefield, dieing a never ending number of times. The harder you fight and the more effort you put into trying to survive, the more you have to fight like if in doing so you only get the same effect as throwing grenades at yourself. The...

I thought I was one of the few people who could see through this smoke-screen as it applys in my case as obvious as it is. It is not as clear to people without serious mental illness but is clear enough that any rational person should have a strong sense of great injustice here. The worship of...

I was given part time hours for 9 or 10 years. It feels a lot like slavory and job theft. Nothing there has changed in the past 9 years about the work load. They even have more people now to do it. I hope a time will come that Corporations will have some accountability.

At my job corporate took over everything a while back. Now I am required to work 8 hour days and whatever shifts after I was doing my max of 4 hours and something because of my PTSD. Just being at that place is my biggest trigger. I was in the ward for suicide attempts a few days and then on...

Panic all the way to the ends of my fingers and through my bones. If there was a fire, I would be more afraid to get out of bed than to worry about the fire.

I hope the journal helps her to understand.

I can completly understand everything in your post. I realy hate when they say you are doing better or you seem to be handling it better when your realy only getting worse. How can you not feel alone with it? Things keep stacking on far quicker than you can deal with things. I don't even know...

The fact about trauma is no two people in the entire world have the same one and I would dare say, kind of trauma. Every person's is as unique as the individual who has it. Your can't realy be very acurate at all if you put Trauma or PTSD into any kind of class system. I have a very bad case of...

I wish I had the capability to cry to let things out to someone but I am completly unable. You have a gift I wish I had. Dont look down on something that wonderful to have. It could give you a kind of healing many of us can't have.

You will have to fix that first.

It will reach a point where it will start to get stronger by the year, then by the month and new mental conditions will happen. It will only keep getting worse unless you somehow find effective treatment and all of the work, only you can do and absolutly no one else can. If too many triggers and...

Same thing for months about demands and job and money while trying to work on self. You are not given a fair fighting chance and no end in sight.