Recent content by Sailor_Jerry89

I will be getting out January or February of 2018 (they are medically retiring me, which would make me legally disabled), but can't give me the service dog (which I offered to pay for out of pocket if necessary) because then the doctors here would be calling me disabled. They need to wait for...

So I am writing this post from my new command, which is a Naval Hospital for treatment. I was supposed to be sent here for treatment for PTSD. I have done the VA evaluation, but that is about it. Since moving here I have LESS treatment (one visit every two weeks compared to 2-3 visits to the...

About every other day I have this pit in my chest. It feels like a ball of anxiety just under my sternum which will make me nauseous, numbness/tingling in my fingers, and my heart feels fluttery. I have panic attacks a few times a week so I know this isn't a panic attack, and I am overall very...

The entire CoC is informed of my situation, but it goes above them: manning. The Region doesn't have the manpower to fuel the Ops department and us to the point where I can delegate. The job I am preforming is supposed to be billeted for 7 people...I have it all. Unfortunately, the whole shop is...

So I have posted on here and received great advice and support, and have found it really helps. To those who have viewed and responded to my past posts, thank you. On to the post. I reference the military a lot because most people don't understand the life, so I feel like explaining will give...

Update: The people during the training were new to the service. The one who caused a panic attack was in for a year or two, and was just an idiot.

I appreciate the support. You have been helpful: sometimes you need to just hear different opinions to better understand your own. Thank you again. As for troops deployed, we have always had people deployed overseas, 24/7. A variety of locations. It is not a fact often advertised, but it is true.

I really don't have a choice. I am deployed overseas with one therapist for the whole command.

I do keep a journal type of thing, and my GF is very supportive and understanding, which helps immensely. Doctor should be back tomorrow hopefully.

So this is an odd feeling. My doctor has been an amazing help through this, but after being on vacation for two weeks (I am in the middle of CBT, which he told me not to interrupt/miss sessions or face setbacks), I find myself angry with him. Everyone deserves a break, especially military...

People tend to try to play things off as 'oh, it will be fine, focus on the good' when it is a psychological issue. I have been told it again and again, even to senior enlisted who ask why my 'treatment plan isn't 'solid''. They don't understand that it isn't as easy as saying, "Of course, why...

Something I have encountered over the last week is people making fun of PTSD. During a training course I was instructing, I had one service member make a comment after the slides of the first lesson finished. The comment was "Man that was boring. These presentations are giving me PTSD" followed...

Thank you for the support everyone, it means a lot. Those moments can be rough, especially when you feel like you are letting others down. I also wanted to mention how amazing my girlfriend is in helping me through my moments. As a veteran herself, she has a good idea of what the struggles are...

With the heightened workload and people making mistakes I have to fix, I have felt extremely down today. I am not normally one to look or ask for positive messages, it feels like fishing for compliments, but could use some good words today. Military life certainly makes PTSD harder, and I could...

I had a dissociative episode last week. Took me this long to be even remotely comfortable enough to type it out. I was outside having a dip break when the next thing I knew I was across the lot, maybe 150-200 yards from where I started: no idea how I got there. This of course sent me into a...