Recent content by Saywhat

LOL. Quite the opinion there!

I don't know that I'd call it an ability, haha, but, yeah. Sometimes the time lapse between dream and specific event is so short and so bizarre that there's no denying the connection between dream and event. Sometimes the dream is about a car wreck. Well shoot, they happen all the time, so...

And that's a fine response, too, if it works better for someone. For me, I don't want the topic on the other person's radar. Example: Have you been sexually molested? I'd rather the counselor's notes say "client denies having had xxx experience" than "client does not wish to discuss experience...

I flat out lie to a counselor who wants to ask questions that I don't feel are relevant or appropriate. I feel as though I've made good progress on this healing journey and I'm not about to let someone derail it, or to form an uninformed opinion about me based on answers to questions that I...

I'm not sure what you are asking, but reading your post reminds me that when I was in my 30s and 40s I felt that the real me was waiting to be discovered, or re-discovered. Now, in my early 60s, I feel as though I've shed many, many of the behaviors (or rather, shed the underlying beliefs and...

I would love to hear about what it's like for you when you try it. I hope it helps you.

I think of it like this. If we imagine time as a rope, with youth on the left and aging on the right, where we are right now is at the very end of the rope, on the right. The rope gets longer as we age. So, now, I am on the far right. But then I think of the event and the rope bends (because...

There's a lot of backstory to this, but to just get to the point, below is a summary of what I think has been a HUGE breakthrough for me. *This has been a lon-n-n-n-n-g process. Didn't just magically pop from nowhere. A few weeks ago I was wiped out by an emotional flashback of, well, it was a...

YES. The healing process for me really took off once I began examining the label and what would lead a professional or support group to stick it on me. I'd heard "PTSD" applied to 20 years ago. I understood some of what it meant (jumpy was the only thing I could identify with, and that was the...

I have no insights to offer on the meaning of your dreams. But I have an opinion on dreams ;) I had horrible nightmares of being chased by various forms of monsters for all my adult life. I was working hard on my healing journey. One day I decided to take control of the dreams. I changed the...

Welcome. I believe in healing; I come here to find out what others are doing to become healthier and also to remind myself that just because it sounds crazy doesn't mean it didn't happen. Helps me own my story. I wish you the best as you keep on going for a healthier next step. It's hard when...

I notice that recently I've been more fully engaged in each moment. This is wonderful because I catch myself checking out less often. (oops. I hope this means that I'm doing it less, not noticing it less 8-0 ) The short term memory issue is very distressing, as I usually operate in a rapidly...

Yes, on the kidnappings. Our parents took turns spiriting us across state lines. I didn't know how to answer some questions because in our childhood, some years were better than others. Some years we saw both parents, then for years on end we'd only see one. And during the child-stealing years...

That's a sad story. When our family left a church we'd attended for over 10 years we found ourselves with zero community. We hadn't made friends elsewhere, and the friends we thought we had didn't want anything to do with us since we'd had the audacity to leave. And that wasn't even a cult, so I...

Whelp. The only reason I go to counseling is that when those feelings come, I become a pile of goo. I now stay quite disengaged from people because that gives me privacy. Or, better, dignity. There isn't any dignity in being the person who suddenly starts crying for no discernible reason. So...