Recent content by SMC_1987

I'm sorry that happened to you, work is my greatest distraction.

Thats pretty crazy, I was in the military and switched to law enforcement myself. I function well at work, in fact its probably the only time I function because I'm distracted. The idea of starting all over again with a new therapist makes me cringe...

Everything just feels really impossible and hopeless, I'm not the person I was before. I feel like I'm standing at the bottom of a dark well looking up, watching people walk by, watching life continue on without me. My PTSD was a very delayed reaction, years later after the initial incident...

I did give up on therapy because the first psychologist I went to was new and not very good. Maybe I should give it another try...I just really hate talking about things with a stranger whom I'm paying to care. Its hard to wrap my brain around.My GP also prescribed me an anti depressant that I'm...

I don't know whats making this happen but lately my moods have been very up and down, good days and bad days. When I get stuck in my lows I self medicate with alcohol and my brain wanders to the idea of suicide. I don't think I would actually do it...but I contemplate about ways I could do it...

My family keeps suggesting medication, it's just not a step I'm ready to take. Shortly after the trauma my family doctor put me on Xanax for "generalized anxiety," the side effects were so awful that I'm really not ready to go down that road again. I was a living zombie for a year and a half...

It's been a long time coming.

He just gave me an ultimatum to change or he's done, so I guess the feeling is mutual. I can't promise him change, so I don't know where to go from here.

Though I don't really identify as "bisexual," if I were to put a lable on it, yes I most certainly am. I think it really depends on who your partner is in terms of how it affects your relationship. My boyfriend knows that I have been with women in the past, but sexually and not in terms of a...

I was only officially diagnosed a week ago, I think part of my brain is still in denial even though I've known for at least the last year SOMETHING was wrong. A small shred is still saying "you're fine, its everyone else who has a problem." My family telling me I'm not the same person anymore...

Its tomorrow at 2 *que sick feeling*

Thanks :)

Oh man, please don't take it personally. I KNOW thats so much easier said than done, how could it be simple when you are berated with hurtful things day in and day out. I do this, all the time. It gets tiring to say you're sorry all the time for things you can't really help at the end of the...

I'm am a sufferer, and I agree completely with what you have said. I have a lot of anger associated with my PTSD and unfortunately my spouse is my outlet to vent my frustrations. There are times when I can control it, there are times when I explode and unload everything on to him, which he does...

Well, after about a solid year of procrastinating I've finally taken the first step in the right direction and booked an appointment with a private psychologist. I've known for a long time I needed therapy, about 6 months ago I almost mustered up the courage to contact someone but ended up...