Recent content by Sodapop20

Sorry you experienced what you did with your grandpa. I relate to a lot of this you not alone in small things out of no where trigging you. I can literally look at someone’s arm and have one of the predators that caused my trauma flash in to my mind. So I think it’s valid to get triggered by...

Today I was thinking about how negatively all the predatory people in my past have affected how I view myself. After I first got exploited by a predator I had a hard time keeping people out of my life that weren’t also predators that just reinforced what how negatively I saw myself. Now after a...

I mean I did kinda like a cup of coffee. It helps you for real? Thanks for saying that I was just scared of going crazy from being hyped. I dissociate a lot also. It’s hard.

Drank to much coffee and parents scared me and hurt my dog as me. So now I’m not able to fall asleep. And my leg hurts because I have nerve damage. And so I feel really out of and it’s super scary because I don’t want to dissociation and end up in the ER again.

Sorry about your recurring childhood trauma. Mine is from childhood as well. And late childhood start at about 15 or 16 through adulthood. I don’t think I can ingore it completely I guess it’s like I’m so focused on not letting myself dissociate to the point that I am needing to go to the...

I dissociate depersonalize and de realize sometimes it’s a relatively new thing that happens with my trauma. It started happening after I witnessed a violent crime that had previous trauma before that anyways now noticed myself zoning out I get afraid that I will have kind of like another...

It’s all happening for different reasons when I lose friends it is kind of the pattern though I just lose friends eventually. to be it feels like people just won’t give me much space to mess up a lot of the time and I’m like gonna mess up. I’m just like not finding the right people for myself. I...

I just lost another friend to a horrible mean person. In a very sad way. I feel like j have such a hard time maintaining frindships and close relationships after what happened. I havent had one stick with me yet. Well not one that i talk to at least. Does anyone else have this problem? What do...