Recent content by Someday Soon

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When you get told after years of abuse to "not live so much in the past" yeah thanks I will try that hey

You know you have PTSD when the nurse hands you a piece of paper that asks 'What stresses you?' And the nurse turns around and says "yes I know there's not enough lines, just try to fit it all in" You know you have PTSD, when your first stressor is "people" the next "the world/environment"...

It's hard, it's not easy and I don't believe it will ever be easy to constantly fight towards our path in life, a path littered with rough rocks and sharp edges. Moments pass, light comes back after the darkness, I know this feels like a feeble attempt to talk you into life, but please know, you...

Triggered. I watched a move with a friend for her Uni assignment called blessed, based on addiction and it wasn't for me, it was based on abuse, I want to die. They had this section of a young man explaining what he would like to do to Eminem and I was gone. The fog the change in feeling, the...

I feel the same, was placed on involuntary leave because work harassed me into meltdown point, had to place ear buds in my ears to quiet the world, work then scared me to death by opening a door and when they tried to touch me as I was having a panic attack they triggered it to amplify ten fold...

When your doctor races out to greet you in the waiting room and then complains for you that there was too many people. Give my doctor credit for attempting to stop a minor sensory overload/ beginning ritualistic escape manouver. (I generally make him stay back when the clinic is meant to be...

Can I just give you hope by saying you are not alone. I know the feeling, I dissociate, feel the need to box myself into a corner, be quiet in an space that needs communication and I am in an environment that doesn't seem to understand or know what real struggle is like. It is exhausting and...

I have PTSD with a complex trauma history (how my T likes to tag the CPTSD until it's an officially listed diagnosis) I can tell you I went 5 years being "normal" if that is what you call it, in all honesty not knowing the difference. I avoided certain triggers (as I now know the teminology as)...

It was in our house, just a different magazine name, same genre. However I was well used and abused and part of that was included in the ritual so it isn't something I take enjoyment out of, shame yes however for other reasons. Did it make me feel less perfect, possibly, it was a standard I...

Rape... Just the word sends my mind quickly attempting to dissociate or erase the letters from the page as I am quick to run away from anything that remotely traces back to my past. Is anyone else like this? My therapist I believe is attempting to desensitise me to this word, however I feel...

I sleep with my stuffed dog, Chunky. He survived all the abuse and endless hours of subjected terror I was placed through, the poor thing is 11 years old and has seen better days. I cannot part with him, I held him when I cried, I held him when the pain became too much, I held him when I felt...

@JadesJewel, totally, the hardest part about being in this, is realising that even know we feel alone there are many who would step in and save us in a heart beat. It my life to fall apart to realise that there are some people out there that aren't as bad as I believed, my perceived safety net...

Originally: Realising what was actually happening to me was wrong, being abandoned when the perpetrators were finished with my used soul, leaving me in the pit of my overwhelming despair turning to S/H to cope, perpetrators tearing out diary pages so no one else would find out. Dragging myself...

When your doctor asks if you truly think everyone is out to murder you. When a simple door opening sends you into a melt down, the person then touches your back and you begin a full blown panic attack. You lock yourself out of your house everyday, you then leave your keys in your scooters...