Recent content by sp33

Thank you for your service. I think that sucks that dispatchers are not considered first responders. Dispatchers are in most cases the first point of contact in emergency situations and are absolutely affected by this. In addition, the job is thankless and a lot of the times you don’t even get...

Has anyone had experiences with lucid dreams? I have been having dreams that in a weird way I control. Im dreaming but directing or controlling the dream. It’s really weird.

Some days doing everything right is exhausting. Go to work, pay your bills, keep your drivers license and vehicle registration current, exercise, eat healthy, don’t smoke, drink or do drugs, get plenty of sleep, socialize and for god sakes, don’t forget to floss.

Maybe it’s just me because I am all kinds of messed up, but journaling is hard for me. I feel like it just re-traumatizes me. I just relive what’s in my head again when I write about it. That’s just me though.

I’m so sorry for what you went through. None of us are crazy. We all are fighting our own unique battles.

I have sacrificed myself and my life in service of others. I have seen and done things that most people can’t comprehend. Because of this, I now have PTSD and I can’t get help because I can’t afford the ridiculously expensive therapists and doctors. So now I have to live a life of untreated PTSD...

Great article. This helps me understand why I sometimes blow up or have such a strong reaction to small things. I was in law enforcement and I have been that person that runs towards the gun fire not away from it. It was so instinctual. It never crossed my mind to run away from it.

I tried lexapro and it gave me awful nightmares and made me so numb. I had to stop taking it. I also have a lot of adverse reactions. I can’t even take most antibiotics. My body just doesn’t like medication.

I also sleep with a fan and have to sleep with noise canceling headphones. I do have a German shepherd that alerts me to noises, which I think adds to my hyper vigilance sometimes. I hear you!!! I do the same. I am exhausted all the time. I have a doctors appt this week and I’m afraid she will...

Omg. I love this. I can barely tolerate the groceries store. I have abandoned my full cart in the isle before because I got too over stimulated. I would rather get shot at then go buy groceries.

Thank you. I read the article. It’s really good and was helpful.

It’s so exhausting. But, I have to say being hypervigilant has saved my rear end a few times. I just can’t seem to stop even when I should be relaxing. I struggle with getting anxiety attacks through the night when I sleep and wake up several times a night. The last counselor I talked to said...

I live in an apartment and all the noise if slamming doors and banging is horrible. I have panic attacks. I bought noise canceling head phones. They have saved my life and the lives of my neighbors.the first thing I do when I come home is put my headphones on.

I was a cop for 13 years and have recently been diagnosed with ptsd. I can’t even walk my dogs without scanning and being so anxious. I struggle with isolation, slamming noises, nightmares and cant seem to trust anyone. I also can’t talk about it because I feel no one will understand. I can’t...

Hello, I was reading this thread and can relate to some of the things you say but with a different situation. I was married for 18 years and finally left due to emotional abuse and many other reasons. When I left (he was 19 at the time) my son was so angry with me and abandoned me. we have...