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Sometimes when I try to remember things it triggers a flashback. If I'm feeling strong I will try to stay with it just to see if I can remember more. But sometimes it's just too much and I run from it. It's weird...I want to remember but I also don't want to remember.

I always knew that my oldest brother and I did things. I felt guilt over it for my entire life, but I could never actually remember what happened. We were both kids, so I felt that the burden of guilt must be equal between us. I was 8 when it began. He was 12. Over the past year or so...

My oldest brother's girlfriend molested me. I was 12, she was 19. She'd randomly show up at our apt to see if my bro was home. If my brother wasn't home she'd ask me to walk her back home. She made me do stuff to her behind a dumpster at the edge of the woods by our apartment. She'd tell me to...

Desiderata, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to trigger anything. Your response was helpful. You are describing exactly the thing that happens to me. And then I felt bad when my doc asked where i went and i couldn't answer. Like I should have had an answer and failed or was stupid. It helps a lot to...

I really appreciate the responses. The awareness of this is all brand new to me, so I'm trying to make sense of it. There are things I do that I feel are dissociative. I am afraid to talk to people. When i do I usually drift out of myself and it's like someone else is talking. It's still me...

I had a conversation a few months ago about how the brain retrieves memories. I said that people have two separate consciousnesses: one that interacts with the external world, and another that is in charge of inner stuff, like filing away memories and retrieving them. The external guy is the...