Recent content by Starfish

Dark.Green.Feathers, I relate!! and I've learned to use some of your same tools to cope. I allow myself 10-12 hours sleep time at nite and that helps too (with the aid of trazodone). It's a lifestyle change, it's definitely about self-care (no matter what anyone might judge me) . Headphones!! A...

Pete Walkers book(thriving/surviving) has been my "Bible" for about 10 years now (I'm 71). I have the audio and the book. I used to fall asleep listening and the book is underlined throughout. The feelings you have had throughout your life mirror mine. I was CPTSD diagnosed at about age 60...

situations like yours that involve other persons weather one or more , that traumatize me, I respect my feelings and leave or do not go back. I listen to my body. I'm learning to go into acceptance instead of re-traumatizing myself. I have a high level of fear always so I experience the fear on...

I agree. It sounds like a good idea for some. for me, it would kick in some perfectionist frustrations I developed during religious education demands/ mistreatment during my childhood...all illegal now

I notice that I am drawn to crime solving shows that keep me guessing but fast forward or shut my eyes when the violence occurs and I tend to pick these types of movies and often consider romantic movies stupid and I fast forward when a long kiss or bedroom scene comes up. I've chocked it up...

100% agree

welcome Chris 46. I think you are definitely reading the reactions right., unfortunately. I have been in cptsd recovery for almost 30 years, starting with AA then Alanon then co-dependents anonymous. And those are just a smidgeon of the avenues I've tried including metaphysical stuff, ad...

getting my hands on Pete Walkers book on CPTSD Survive to Thrive!! Saved my Life!!

Michmon, I understand what you are going through with the PTSD and people scaring you. After years of finding ways to cope with my PTSD symptoms on a daily basis while raising children and working, I realize I need to keep myself safe as my nervous system is wired to shake and run when others...

ditto! I am finding your strategies to help me too. " In-person with people" is becoming basically impossible for me due to huge fear felt in my whole body that makes my head spin and triggers an overwhelming flight impulse so I leave and now, no longer even go to events. I used to have the...

@jiayuan I'm so glad you came to tell this horrible life experience you have had so far. When I found Pete Walkers book "From Surviving to Thriving" , I was so relieved .....I kept it next to my bed, along with a yellow marking pen. His personal experience with C-PTSD along with his...

This has been me also and for the same reason....thus 3 marriages that all ended....I was not in love with the person., in fact, barely attracted to them...I was just so in need of attention and I hid my deficiencies in "a relationship". Each person has the freedom to choose behavior that they...

Thank you for your encouraging words. They help me realize that at 34 I was able to drive and work etc. I did not know then what was wrong with me.But I knew something was. There are so many factors that go into our trauma effects on different timelines and symptoms. I am glad you are coping as...

I am 70 now and find myself craving to hear from members here who are experiencing a decline as they age. I am sensing that I've had this burden since birth.....never any memories of love or kindness in my family of origin and I have carried this burden, using coping skills to work and raise...