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It's been a while since I last posted something on here but had a really bad experience a week ago and now having a hard time. On December 22nd we had our annual Christmas party at my bosses house. It's a privately owned company and we only have about 8 employees so every year we have our...

Last Resort- Papa Roach

I believe my abusers enjoyed abusing me. I believe my second abuser seemed to enjoy it more than my first. The abuse my second abuser exposed me to was a lot worse than my first abuser but I remember the fear I had to just look at him or when he would look at me. How he can come into a rom and I...

I can relate to you @MaltOMeal . I went through the same thing with my grandfather from the time I was 5 till I was 8 years old. Back then I didn't know what was going on. He made me feel special. To call me into his room and have our special time together is what he would call it. He said I was...

Thank you @Lolly I've been trying my best to do so. Hope your flashbacks get better.

I often have flashbacks and nightmares of me being raped when I was little and times when I was a little older. Recently been having really bad flashbacks of my most recent attack. I also wake up feeling sore and have bruises. Unfortunately the places that are sore I cant use a heat pad to help...

I'm like that almost every night. It really sucks. I lay down about midnight and end up laying awake in the dark until 1 to 2 in the morning. Than when i do fall asleep I'm usually woken up by a nightmare. My alarm clock than goes off at 5:45 am to wake up, get ready for work and get my son...

@Cherry_Bluebell yes my aunt was very supportive too bad I can't say the same for my mom. My aunt ended up telling my mom what happened. My mom then came to me crying asking me why i never told her or why I never said anything to anybody. I didn't know what to say to her. The next morning when I...

I've only told 1 person about the first time I was raped. I didn't know it was rape for a long time as I was a 7 year old little girl. The second time I was raped it lasted for years from the time I was 10 till I was 13. The whole time this was happening to me I always felt like I deserved it...

I have an appointment this Friday to get the tests done for STI's. When I called the doctor to ask about when I should get tested after having unprotected sex with someone ( I did not tell them about the rape) they said it would be better to wait a couple of weeks so if I was infected with...

Three weeks ago I posted on this site for the firs time about my attack. I was raped at a party by I believe 3 different guys. Since then I haven't been able to sleep really well been waking up from nightmares, having flashbacks and just been having a really terrible time coping with all of...

@Jen93 Sorry for upsetting you. Did not mean to. I'm just expressing my opinion. I believe children do not need to be entertained at all times and there are some children who are just awful. I've seen it and have been around it. And I'm talking about a swat on the butt with your hand not...

So I'm thinking about trying to get into some therapy but I don't know where to start. My nightmares and flashbacks will just not go away since the attack 3 weeks ago. It's been hard to sleep and when I do I'm just woken up again and afraid to fall back to sleep. Which makes it worse...

It really irritates me to hear a child screaming. I have a child so I can kind of tell the difference between a needing cry or scream or if the child is just a spoiled brat and is crying because they want something they can't have. My son is 10 years old and he can't stand when he hears babies...

I was sexually abused as a child from the time I was 5 years old till I was 13 and decided to leave home. I was raped at age 7 by one of my grandpas weird friends and then raped again from the time I was 10 till I was 13 by my moms boyfriend. Sex to me has never been a good experience. To me sex...