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I wish I didn’t write the above. Long story short — I’m utterly repressed and just now learning how to identify emotions as well as allowing my body to feel them. This was a kneejerk public post that should have been a private journal entry. I have no idea what’s going on in my dad’s emotional...

Thanks so much. I wanted to highlight your saying my other sister’s response was caring — it absolutely was. She has been my “detach with love” sibling during my angry periods and aided in appropriately challenging my “still needs work” behavior.

I’m super tired right now and it’s good to both feel & say that because I am more in my body than ever before. A huge “yay” for that. I’ve finished my first week of IOP, had the desire to leave after the first 5min on the first day, allowed that to pass and surprisingly (?) didn’t have that...

Welcome. ❤️✨ I’m new still myself and finding this a lovely space to share, receive and broaden understanding.

This post will be admittedly a little choppy and cliche. I’m currently feeling like a mix of a wise adult, angry teen boy and a hurt & confused little girl. These feelings are actually not very current as they have been a norm since I came out to myself several months back. The joy is I feel...

Thank you so much for your candid and kind response as well as offer to share resources! That would be amazing and super appreciated. ❤️✨

So I had a “nice” combo of CPTSD and gender dysphoria last week when I lashed out at my oldest sister, who was a culprit of sorts for my feeling “weird”. She’s a lovely person who just is unable to “get me” and I held anger about that for years. The “last straw” was receiving a birthday card...

Thanks everyone for your kind & thoughtful responses. It means a lot and was very helpful. ✨

Hi. I’m 42 now and often remember two incidences in particular with friends around that age. As others have said, it’s not abnormal — a lot of folks around my age and older called it “playing doctor”, which feels creepy to write out and also understand why we feel icky after. I’ll also say it...

Thank you for sharing. I can relate a lot to your story. You come across like a lovely gentle human who has been hurt. I’m also really glad Stephanie is in your life and affirms this.

Thank you for your candor and poignant words here. I both live with MDD and self blame when anyone I know loses the battle.

Wow. Thank you. I’m sorry that you hid for decades and grateful for sharing this. Really struck a chord with me as well as the OP’s words. Depression was and still is part of my personality to an extent AND it’s not okay with me to act like “it’s just me” because there’s so much joy to unlock...

Oh wow. Thanks so much. I’m realizing my depression is more the “culprit” than my CPTSD and this is so cathartic/confirming.

Pouring my soul into this as best I can because I’ve been half here/half not for most of my life. CPTSD is one of several diagnoses I have. Major Depression is my primary and I also deal with pretty bad anxiety that my depression tends to eradicate because I go numb easily. I’m sick of not...

Thanks for sharing and Welcome. Family “othering” is really rough and something I relate to a lot. So glad you have friends who are available to be you with and you’re definitely among folks who “get it” here.