Recent content by Sunset

I think I'm really trying to figure out how to keep myself sane in the short-term here. Sure, I can work towards financial independence, but that doesn't keep me from making myself sick crying now. And unless I want to leave all my stuff and move into a homeless shelter, financial independence...

A lot of it right now for me is feeling financially stuck in a situation that, while not abusive, feels like it still has a lot of disrespect in it. I'm not really comfortable with putting up with the status quo, but in the short-term I don't feel like I have a lot of options.

They don't say that, but it seems to be a fair representation of how they act. I'm not sure how much it matters to me if it's actually what they think. At the end of the day, the problem is I seem to be in a situation where "I think you're being rude/disrespectful" is consistently treated as a...

I think my frustration is that sometimes, it feels like a very one-sided thing. Like there isn't even any potential consideration of changing Y, even if it would be easy to change. Because the problem is obviously with my feelings, so it's totally unreasonable for me to ask someone else to...

I understand the basic idea behind "I statements." The trouble is you do need something that puts the onus on the other person. In my experience, if I say "I feel X when you do Y", the focus becomes not on fixing Y, but on figuring out what's wrong with me and what I should change so I don't...

I guess at this point...I'd only be comfortable with a therapist if I knew absolutely, 100%, that they could not and would not use any sort of coercive measures on me. My worry about point-blank questions is that asking too many direct questions is another sign that something's seriously wrong...

It's not that I believe all therapists are bad. It's that by the time I saw that he was bad, I was already sucked in to where I didn't feel like I had the option to get out. I don't feel that there's really any warning signs or red flags in a therapist that I could rely on that wouldn't force...

Honestly I think a lot of it was just bog-standard bullying. He saw me as a problem to be controlled however necessary rather than a human being who needed treatment. What I'm afraid of is if I go back to treatment, they'll put more lies in my record and then say if I don't continue treatment...

Well, what happened to me was that this guy didn't believe a lot of things that I said had happened - like being abused by a fellow student. So he put a bunch of stuff in my file that wasn't true, or was only half-true, in a way that it made it look like I was in a significantly worse mental...

Honestly at this point...I feel like I'm coping, but just coping, if that makes sense. I am on medication - meds are easier to handle than therapy because I don't really have to open up, just tell them some symptoms I want to be treated. I'd like someone who would actually answer my questions...

Part of my problem is that I experienced a lot of trauma and disbelief within the mental health system. I have multiple examples of seeking mental health treatment significantly worsening my condition, often to the point of wanting to die when I previously didn't without the treatment. At this...

I'm mostly looking for someone to handle meds. I've given up on therapy at that point. So my other big ones are "willing to explain diagnoses and medication choices" and "willing and able to handle unusual reactions to medications without skepticism."