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I have DID.. doesn't sound like u have what i call my helpers.. I wouldn't get anxiety over having those feeling moments though.. If u have trauma.. its probably exactly that... and its ypur way of soothing yourself.. or your inber child if you will. Not the same as DID though.. thank your lucky...

ELSE is an amazing therapy. It works. It's hard work. You have to work with it. Not a miracle cure. IF you are suicidal, you need to put yourself into the hospital for treatment first. ELSE can bring up more stuff as it clears out other stuff especially if you have chronic abuse or severe...

@Mangochutney - Be safe.

Everything. Everything made me angry today. It's a rare emotion for me to feel. Or to recognize, or allow in to feel. Today, everything made me angry.

I certainly am... many know my story.. ritualistic abuse, trafficking, DV.. If it could happen, it probably did. As a result, I have helpers who developed to assist me to cope so I could function as I disassociated through it all. It started at 3. Sec repulses me. It eventually will make the...

Journaling, drawing, painting, you don't have to be good, just enjoy it for what it is... a release. Exercise, I agree.. learn something you have wanted to learn... Just for you.. is there some activity you always wanted to learn? A language, a sport? Anything? Do It! Use that energy for that...

Enaila.. I try.. her name is Sunny.. but, it's not fair and it is really bad stuff.. either way, it's been really bad weeks both from memories and current events.. so... this to, shall pass i suppose.. thanks for your support.

Today is a bad day. My one and only support system at work is leaving. I'll be fighting hard professional battles alone. (As if my job was not hard enough..) it feels like once things get a little ok somewhere in my world, someone, some being says, nope... not gonna happen. Not for you. When...

Thanks Toriplays.... it's a rough time right now, but I'll make it through.. always have..

Today was a bad day. I am more sensitive to smell when things are going bad for me emotionally, so I can't seem to get my house, in particular my room to smell ok. It just has an odor to it, at least to me. I can't make it go away. I was cleaning the house, and I heard screaming and yelling...

Well, it's been a really hard weekend and now beginning of the week... more memories of abuse... worse than these horrible, evil memories, two, yes, two of my "helpers", left us. It was time I suppose. They served their purpose. They can return if I need them and that has been made clear, but...

Yes.

First and foremost, there are some red flag words that you are using here.. and maybe it's just wording... "you love him more than yourself". True? Or, are you making a point? You have to love you most, no matter what. 2. He calls you and you leave other relationships for him? How many times is...

Yuppers. That'swhat i thought. Thanks

Today I wonder why there is a reason that abuse begins for people at 3 yrs old. Why that's allowed to happen. What is the force is in the world that allows things like that to happen. When a person actually gets to heal from that, how long does that take? Tonight it feels hopeless, and just sad.