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I had a telehealth session with a new psychiatrist today; she is from Ukraine and has a heavy accent. In my intake paperwork, I mentioned being disowned when I was 16 when I came out as LGBT. I guess the psychiatrist wasn't clear on the meaning of the term "disowned" because she asked, "Did you...

I'm definitely going to try talking out loud as a grounding technique. And yeah, I know that it is ultimately up to her when to read it (if she does)... but I feel like I take enough of her emotional bandwidth and energy as it is, and emailing her isn't going to solve anything or help me right...

My homework for the week is to find an image or a video of a calming place, so I'm definitely not giving up on the idea. I didn't consider that hyper focusing on excess emotion is a way of purging it... my therapist asked if I primarily journal with negative prompts, as in trauma-type prompts...

I feel bad emailing her, especially since (I don’t think?) she works Fridays so it’s technically going to be her weekend. I don’t want to bother her. I did email her after I semi calmed down, though, to apologize for the end of the session. I like the idea of your safe place. I’m glad it works...

My therapist was showing me "calming" photos to help me find my "safe place" for EMDR since I can't visualize my own. She flashed 5 images in a row and the 4th was a picture of a bright blue sky with clouds in a wispy pattern. It looked exactly like the sky did when I was raped, the clouds and...

I've been trying to journal and write down my distorted thought processes so I can see them and challenge them. That's helping me to recognize what is an actual threat vs. perceived, and its helping me get through the waves day-to-day. I finally managed to get a telehealth appointment for...

I actually used to work at an inpatient facility as a therapist. I don’t really need a lock down facility to feel safe, I think it’s just my PTSD playing tricks on me. I’m going to be panicky anywhere. I’d consider a hospital if I felt like I was an imminent danger to myself, but I’m not there...

arted getting messages on Facebook from the rapist who is currently out of prison. They’re basically angry rants, but they’re also threats. I’ve contacted the police and all of that, and I’m in the process of getting a no contact order, but damn is it difficult to deal with this right now. I was...

I'm 31 and have been dealing with PTSD and MDD for more than 15 years. I grew up in a very small, conservative town and came out when I was 16. I was immediately disowned by my parents and had to live in my car. At 17, I was raped during a very violent assault by a friend and 2 classmates and...