Recent content by The Black Phoenix

I was not aware of switching as a child, but I was aware of losing time. I'd be somewhere having a conversation with someone in one room and "wake up" in another. This was observed by outsiders as if I had "gone hysterical" during the time periods I don't recall. I am formally diagnosed with...

I have been completely med free for the last four months or so. I do feel more but it's 100% worth it. It definitely comes with challenges.

I understand the need for changes... but I'm way more upset about the loss of my avatar than I thought I would be.

Lamictal made my memory worse and messed with my cognitive ability. I don't hear much about this as a complaint, but I can say it was noticeable for me.

Med free here. I take Zyrtec for allergies, melatonin for help with sleep, an inhaler for asthma and a multi-vitamin. Two years ago I was one five psychiatric medications concurrently. I don't think there is anything wrong with taking meds, but having gone down that road myself, I would not want...

I did take it for while, and it did help alleviate the nightmares. It didn't help me sleep, and it caused my blood pressure to drop enough that I always felt unwell, otherwise, I would still be open to the idea of taking it. Unfortunately it doesn't seem to be in the cards for me.

Congrats on the apartment prospect! Your challenge with your Grandparents sounds like a generational thing. Regardless of their expectations recovery is individual and varies. You can only do what you can do.

I'm going to echo what everyone else is saying... It's very hard. I have a few core friends who understand my need for private time, and when I ask for it they always respect that and don't get offended when I bow out of events and don't take every offered invitation. I also don't have any...

I feel your pain. The body really does keep the score. I can't tell you how many times I've put bread in the freezer, and ice cream in the microwave! It might very well be tied to dissassociative symptoms though, because I have those problems too (whee). I fear my doctor is going to start...

@Heather, ugh, I feel your pain. A lot of mine have to deal with the deaths/torture of the people close to me, and my cats. I don't talk about them much anymore, because I think it has traumatized most people that I've told them about. I've also been gunned down more times than I can count...

3 hours. Exhausted.

Slept three hours last night, I feel your pain. Once I'm up, I'm up. Yet I'm desperately tired.

I'm on Prazosin as well. Now that my dosage has been increased I find that it helps quite a lot. Sleep and I are still not friends though. I wish we could find a way to reconcile, but alas, it seems it is not meant to be.

Ok, so I haven't had the best two weeks, so I've been hiding in my hole and not posting much. BUT I thought it might be helpful to others to talk about some of the many health problems that I have been found to have, that turn out to be related to trauma. I've learned all this the hard way, and...

@Glenn R. we should start a club.. I am right there with you. I'm exhausted until my head hits the pillow, and then the anxiety sets in. Some of my dreams are directly trauma related, but I would say 80 to 90 percent are not directly so. Some of them are so bad, I actually remember ones that I...