Recent content by theotherside

Welcome :) I can relate to a lot you said.

Yes I do. It's fear of a social interaction/relationship. I have been isolating for months, have no friends, no real support and Im afraid to meet or get to know ANYONE because who knows what I will do, start crying, running, get angry, panic attack, flashback, dissociate. (It is so very clear...

All i can do is cry and cry and say over and over please god help me and my family. I need relief

All i can say is sorry. And i think i understand

I am feeling the worst fear right now. I could barely type from shaking. I tried to workout but that didnt help. I get to this place of fear that is paralyzing and all i can do is to hide in a dark room on the floor curled up. I have for so long just wanted to feel safe. I never felt safe as...

@joeylittle thanks that really helps. This is the first time I have ever had this happen...although at the dentist and doctor I get a similar feeling. But this is just at home anytime and its so bad I cringe and try to cover my body ( like curl up)

The best way I can describe is I feel them doing that to me like that night in the hospital. And then I get real bad anxiety

@joeylittle no that's not possible. This is the first time I had that pain since that night 16 years ago in the hospital. It is a stressful time for me so that might explain it.

That got posted before I was done. So I wanted to say that the physical pain I felt that night I keep feeling now. Over and over, then I think of that night

I have a long story of abuse/trauma. Right now though one of my traumas is fighting for first place. It happened in a hospital when I was just 16. Very painful and traumatic. I don't want to get into what happened but I was screaming in pain and begging them to stop. The doctor and nurses made...

I am so sorry for your loss

I feel ya on the shitty day. I'm having one too. So sorry you had to go through that. People just don't understand sometimes. I'm all shaky and having fast hr too. I'm trying new meds and I'm just in a crappy mood and kinda spaced out.. I hope you are able to comfort yourself and feel better...

@OneWing wow you described how i feel today perfectly. Its so horrible. Ive just been having these thoughts, i guess processing the trauma. Today I had a flashback and Im just like a ghost now. I have so much to do but I cant. Im so out of it.

I did not read the article but hell yes. I would have done the same or tried. So sorry the boy will have to live with that.

Weird, off, scared, overwhelmed with responsibility, foggy, nervous,clammy, flushed, tired, full of never-ending negative thoughts and memories that wont quiet down in my head, my mouth is dry, im kinda thirsty but i dont even have motivation to get up, my head hurts, but less than my usual...