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It's my birthday tomorrow, and I have decided not to be with my family because my family and the place I am now forced to live in are major triggers for me because they were there when my partner died it is my father who caused the accident that killed him. Obviously no one understands this and...

My T is in the US, and I was forced to relocate to the place where the accident happened because of my inability to work/support myself financially (which sure doesn't help), so he does not have a contact here. I am stuck for the time being, and I need to find a new therapist as well as a...

Let me start by saying that I feel like I'm getting more help and information from people on this website than by all the health professionals I have seen - combined. I will never cease being grateful for finding this place, and to you guys specifically. Additional info: I have a slight...

I saw the psychiatrist in charge of my legal case for the car accident that killed my partner and caused my PTSD. He doesn't specialise in PTSD, and he's actually a pediatric psychiatrist. We discussed some medication options, and he wants me on 10mg abilify twice per day and xanax 10 drops...

Thank you... I feel like all this has come back to haunt me after I saw my fiancé die (which is the reason I have PTSD now) in the accident. He had helped me feel like I was "over" all of that, but since he has gone, even things I had forgotten have resurfaced to bother me.

After developing PTSD, I have also started recalling a lot of memories unconnected with the event itself, or at least very indirectly connected with it. Although all unpleasant, none of them are as bad as they could be, or as they sadly are for others. But while my rational mind has pushed them...

So I am here, and meeting people whom I have never seen, and some of which had not seen him in years. I am the one who had known him for the shortest amount of time. I feel like I have nothing to contribute, nothing he used to say that can be shared as they would like it to be. So I don't think...

Thank you... You all. I hadn't cried good tears in months. He was and still is amazing. I know he was, is, and will always be my soul-mate, the person you come home to just as you would come home to your own self - same, but better. Even with his struggles, even with his pain, he still was...

Friday - no, he was not just that. He was quite simply everything I have always wanted in a partner. Yes, even factorning in how battered by life he was. He had a generous heart, and a high ethical stance. I loved him through his faults because if he was so easy to manipulate and take advantage...

My partner died in a car crash six months ago. I am going to the burial of his ashes this coming week. His father asked me if I wanted to say anything. But I don't think anything I have to say is shareable. Here is why. When I met my partner he was suicidal. He was anorexic. Had lost any...

I have been on Zolpidem for close to two months now. I am not very consistent, though. Sometimes I take 5 mg, sometimes 10 mg, sometimes none (if I have drunk or if I have a very early appointment I am scared of missing). I didn't know about any effects with long term use. I have not brought it...

Did anyone else experience menstrual irregularities following trauma, like periods coming much earlier than expected, or later, or skipping altogether?

I had my second EMDR session this week. So far I am finding it more useful than seeing the psychiatrist, and for the first time in my life I do not dread the session. I also, however, find it utterly exhausting. I walk out of the office in some kind of a daze, and it's very difficult to go home...

Of course, and I appreciate it. It's like now it's hard for me to fully own the extent of the damage - which others on the thread have also pointed out, and which I find very useful. And before this - to be honest, it just didn't occur to me at all that trauma could explain it. Let's put it this...

Thank you, KA-9... I think the last part is something I am still coming to terms with. Is it common for people to somehow refuse to fully consider themselves as traumatized? I don't think that until the accident and being diagnosed I had really put two and two together with my past. It never...