Recent content by Upside Down Eagle

That seems odd, I thought normally universities have some sort of flexibility when it comes to people who have a 'disability', and ptsd qualifies as a disability. In my case, leniency was granted. What's their argument for not providing it? Would you feel safe being outside of your parents...

I've got a different, more spiritual take on this (and of course, one can take it or leave it). We are collectively in times of change... a lot of people are feeling "loose sand under the feet", so to speak. I think I know exactly what you mean by "flux states" - I get into states that feel...

The vacuum cleaner. It's like a cleaning inception.

I'd just like to add, although my studying days are long gone, that you are a worthy person inherently, regardless of whether you pass or fail an exam. Society's black and white standards ("passing" versus "failing") are not even remotely representative of personal worth. Unfortunately (but...

This is perhaps a lame suggestion, but could it help to make a list of things that you would say "describe you", and include the qualities you think defined you in the old profession. After all, the qualities that you brought to the table in that job (and maybe made you good at it) are inherent...

Why did the tomato go out with the prune? He couldn't get a date.

Sounds like you're pretty angry, and if it helps you, absolutely you can rant - perhaps drive to the forest and scream what you need to scream at the trees. I'm reading into your words that you're "Mad AF" about what something you think you have been robbed of. Loads of people here have been...

Jamming (pump up the jam, pump it up...)

Again I'd like to apologize, I never meant to assume anything, much less discredit anybody. I was talking purely about my own experience. Which is, that I absolutely loathed the gendered parts of my body, and it absolutely felt related to sexual trauma. And then when I had my surgeries (all of...

Hey @Movingforward10 Really appreciate your reply. Also thank you for saying that I might not be making this up. At this point, I am not completely sure whether I need to 100% confirm that these memories happened. It puts me in a weird position with others, when I try to describe these...

Low-key regret, yes. In the sense that I look back and think, it would have been nice to have finished. But nothing big. I do miss some aspects of it, I love analysis and thinking, but the upside is that I've become much less cerebral and more practical. I don´t know if academia was "my...

Yeah, I quit. Right now I'm laughing. But it wasn't so funny then. :)

That's really good, that you worked through the more psychological stuff, and now the somatic stuff is surfacing. I mean, obviously it is still painful to work through that, but awesome that you made that progress. Welcome to the forum.

Very well worded. Can relate 100%. I had a similar experience to you while going through my higher ed. But it sounds like you're actually pushing through, so I think you're doing pretty well. This forum is great for getting some new insights. Welcome!