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Hi guys just wanted to check in and say thanks for all your support earlier in the year! I haven't gotten much further along in my understanding of what's going on with me as the last time I went to therapy T triggered me so severely that I can't bring myself to go back or to see anyone else...

And thank you everyone for your replies, it's always great to have support from people who know what's going on in my head because they themselves are going through the same thing :)

The cat is out of the bag, pandora's box is opened, the apple has been eaten, and theres no putting humpty dumpty back together again. It's quite ok @Loner You don't sound like a jerk, it's reality isn't it? And You are so very right! You explained it perfectly here ^^ as much as I wish I could...

I'm currently on the same level I think @Storm-ridden I've had a couple of really good weeks and just when I thought things were looking up... BAM! I'm back in this black hole and it's just getting worse :( I moved out on my own which I though I needed but now I am extremely anxious again and...

Overwhelmed and like its all getting too much? I am on my own in my new place but I still feel like I'm stuck and need to get out...but out of what exactly? I feel like I need to go away...that's what is wrong!! I haven't disassociated in a while and I think I miss it? I want to disassociate!

I have just started a new thread on wanting to go back...I think I'm having a poor me night :(

In the past few months I have gone from being blissfully (to a point) unaware of the trauma I had been thru as a small child... thanx to my amazing mind and it's effective use of disassociation...to having to work hard every day to stay in reality and deal with my feelings and memories in order...

Good for you for not deleting. Out there in the world: batshit crazy. In here: perfectly normal. Lol that's definitely the response I'm sure to get out there! So in here is where It will stay...altho I am guessing I will have to discuss it with my therapist at some point. Sometimes I just...

Welcome! Your sister has an amazing brother and I bet she would die for you also! I'm sorry to hear how you both (and your mother it seems) have endured such trauma, however just sharing your story here shows how strong you are! I too am unsure exactly if I was I fact molested/raped as most of...

Thanx @Pencil I read thru the IFS link that @lucykat posted and found it extremely interesting and comforting as well to know that I'm not alone or 'a freak'! Is this something I should discuss with my T? We already spoke about something like this last week when all of a sudden something she...

@radicalgratitude yes it is quite a bit like that! Thank you

Shit I pressed post before I could chicken out lol

Lol thanx guys, yes I was asleep and in amongst all the helpful information I did manage to have a good giggle! I'm still not quite sure where I fall into in this category? Maybe it is just normal thoughts, I dunno? Here's a bit of my background which may help a little? I thought my recent...

I don't really know where to start but I feel like there is a constant battle inside my head with other 'personalities'. On normal days I can go about my time without much hassle however if I'm having a bad day or if something triggers me I feel like I'm going into battle with myself! Part of me...

Thank you saoir, I have been feeling quite confused as to whether I should try to remember or not, I am thinking I will try to let it go, for now anyway. My therapist told me that I have blocked it out for a reason and when the time is right I will remember? I, like you, have a very blurred...