Complete agreement with @Movingforward10 , not just about your experience, but ours as well! We were definitely not allowed to get things wrong when we were young, with all the PTSD aftermath.
We find it useful to think, "What would a non-PTSD person feel or do in this situation?" From what...
That she invited you over afterwards says to me that she wants to still be friends and does not think of you as a horrible person.
I think the key here is that what you perceive as coming out of your mouth is different than what your neighbor and daughter perceive. That's a confusing place...
We had gum surgery yesterday, so we need to eat mush for two weeks. Baked potatoes with black beans, sour cream and melted cheese. Mashed sweet potato. Baked apple slices with butter, brown sugar, and spices for dessert, with vanilla yogurt on top.
We remember the first time we did the grounding exercises in Coping with Trauma Related Dissociation, and a profound shift happening. That was a mild euphoria. Nowadays, our female parts often feel body euphoria. For so long, being in touch with our body's sensation was so forbidden. We find...
We used academic achievement to avoid our terrors, too (double major, then Ph.D., then mid-career M.S.). Good luck on your journey, and hope you find the right balance in your life so that you can move forward. For what it's worth, we have a government research job, and not an academic job...
Your journey sounds like it's in the right direction, even if it's hard and exhausting.
After our female parts came out, we learned that life was better when one of them was in control, but that was only temporary because the male parts' hurts and loneliness was just hidden. Then we found that...
Loneliness with DID is hard. We have had luck with establishing friendship and community within our system of parts, and also meeting a few people with DID through the Healing Together conference: Healing Together Conference | An Infinite Mind | International Organization Dedicated to DID ...
What would the new part like to be called?
We're thinking that a good goal isn't to get them back in the box, but for the you-writing-the-post part to learn how to talk and be present with this new part, and for the new part to learn how to take part in that as well.
The question that comes up...
I can see the huge difference in therapy response between my wife, who's been grieving about her parents and has made good progress with a handful of months of sessions, versus me, with dissociative disorder and heavy CPTSD from when we were very young. Dr. Google doesn't capture that...
Just to second Sideways' experience, I've been in therapy 2 1/2 hours a week for a few years, which was a big increase from the 45 min I did for a long time. Recently, my therapist and I just agreed to drop to 2 hours a week for now, and likely down to 1 1/4 hours in the near future.
I had a therapist give me almost zero notice when she came down with a serious health issue that needed immediate attention. The referrals that she found for me were an incredible blessing--she was better at sifting through some options for me than I was at the time, and I ended up with a very...