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  1. OceanSpray

    Experiences Starting Lexapro

    I’m on my second day of Lexapro and I feel high. Is that normal? Should I ask to have the dosage changed? Is this some weird placebo effect? My whole body just feels full of butterflies but heavy. So heavy I don’t want to move or do anything. But I’m not exactly tired either. Does anyone have...
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    Levels to Suicidality?

    We all know that there’s suicidal ideation and there’s actively suicidal. But what about when you’re in between? I live daily with some level of ideation, at its most basic where more days then not I’ve got intrusive thoughts of what if I jerked the car this way? Or took this combination of...
  3. OceanSpray

    Military Care Package

    It’s possible that I’m just in a bad mood but this comment really irks me. Of course I’ve asked my nephew, he’s a man of few words. He was the parentified child in my sisters house. He’s the one who absolutely does not communicate when he wants or needs things because he was trained from early...
  4. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Tonight’s nightmares featured being at some kind of boarding school situation and getting paired up with this boy my age who every time we were alone would rape me. Either fully or digitally. I kept trying to get away from the school or any projects he was on but the other students seemed to...
  5. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Tonight was packed full of dreams and it’s not even 3 am yet. Only a few standout but I need to get them out. 1. I felt anger, immense anger. I was working in an office with some other people where clients would come visit us. There was a hole in the roof that was never repaired. That let...
  6. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I finally managed to quit my job which I’m hoping will do wonders for my mental health. But then my nephew is in the worst possible spot in the world he could be in right now. There’s the constant flood of Epstein news. I used to work for Lifetouch which has now been heavily tied to Epstein...
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    Military Care Package

    One of my nephews is currently stationed in a very volatile area. They haven’t shut down the ability to send packages yet and I want to send one off before they do again. I know to include his favorite snacks, but what else would he and the others with him like? What did you want most?
  8. OceanSpray

    Nightmare during Meditation- kind of

    I have been trying out manifestation lately and a part of that is when I go to sleep I like to put on a meditation video from YouTube. I choose a different one every time, different creators, different videos, different goals, just to spice it up. Typically I will listen and my body will feel...
  9. OceanSpray

    Multilingual Again

    I feel like this is a relatively good thing. Cause sure not everyone has experience with it to be able to answer right off the bat. But quite a few do and it can explain what it is to those who don’t know. Then it has a decent base line to go off of from the start of the conversation.
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    Multilingual Again

    Because that whole thread was the other users whole conversation with it. . .
  11. OceanSpray

    Multilingual Again

    To be fair, I am one who would appreciate the slang speech. When it’s formal, it feels “too” AI, too therapisty, and would put me off it completely. I like the informality.
  12. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I still want this. I have a countdown on my phone. 36 days remaining. Just don’t know that I have the guts to actually go through with it.
  13. OceanSpray

    Ask a foreigner

    Starting a gun rights debate was not my intention 😅 Can you elaborate on this? (Not being snarky, I'm genuinely confused by the supposed idea that only Americans are interested in keeping themselves safe). Yes. Here is a list., here, and here. But be mindful that when an incident has no...
  14. OceanSpray

    Ask a foreigner

    What do people generally use for self protection in the UK? I’m from the US so things like pepper spray, knives, stun guns, bear spray, and obvs actual guns are just a handful of things people here carry with them. I can understand things like guns and knives being banned there but from my...
  15. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I feel like I did kind of a boss move on my boss and I have no one to talk to about it. I tried to quit my job a few days ago because there’s a lot about it I don’t want in my life anymore. There’s a lot of toxicity and I bring in money from other sources. My boss called me freaked out...
  16. OceanSpray

    Manifestation

    Anyone get into the manifestation community and have success in changing your reality or getting things you want?
  17. OceanSpray

    Other Are triggers not always a mirror?

    Could be a little of both. Could also see it by breaking down the abusers motivations (rather than actions). For example, Abuser was neglected as a child and never did anything to change or heal so went on to neglect their own children. Those children will have triggers related to neglect that...
  18. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I’m thinking of gamifying my life. I want to turn every action into some kind of point system. So if I eat a healthy meal, I gain 10 points, if I go to the gym I earn 30 points, if I get fast food it costs 50 points, etc. I don’t know if it would be something I could keep up with but I need some...
  19. OceanSpray

    You Know You Have PTSD When...

    When you get to a certain point of fatigue that the suicidal thoughts suddenly turn on like a tap.
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    This will be my last post ever on this site

    Hey so I know where you’re getting that impression from. I can tell you right now it’s not you. Some forum users have a lot of their own work to do on themselves and how they approach and talk to people. It was an overreaction from that person and I hope they see this and apologize but even if...
  21. OceanSpray

    This will be my last post ever on this site

    These things happen, I don’t think you need to leave over it.
  22. OceanSpray

    Death My friend died

    I think this may be for a different thread.
  23. OceanSpray

    How do you know when you’re overthinking?

    I know I do it- after the fact. But so much of my trauma and abuse surround having needed to be steps ahead and if I wasn’t predicting needs and moods and environments then there were big consequences. Which means now, every little thing I say or do or that anyone around me says or does is...
  24. OceanSpray

    What is wrong with “fixing”?

    I put up another post asking what ways you feel supported because of a fight ish I’ve had with a friend. Another thing she brought up is she wants me to stop trying to fix things. She says she wants me to just listen to her. I do listen to her, gladly and I don’t step in with advice, I’ve...
  25. OceanSpray

    How do you feel supported?

    I recently got into a fight- ish? I’m not sure what exactly it was, with a friend. One of the things in it is she asked me how do I feel supported, how do I feel seen or heard, as in what behavior can she do for me. And the honest answer is I have no idea. I blanked. Anything I can think of...
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