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Nothing, as I should.

Feels like I'm living in a nightmare

I could've written this, guess astrology is mostly accurate after all... I had to say goodbye to someone on new year's and not looking forward to what that'll bring and where I'll turn to. It was so sudden and at least they were calm about it, so calm that I believed I could've fixed it.

Adrenaline

Very well cause I forced it to happen.

Light rain ☔ 18°C but feels more like 15°C

Pigeon Favourite doll / action figure?

Will always have rolling veins no matter how low my body fat percentage is 😑

I wish I had permission to take care of my mind and body or at least permission to exist comfortably.

I saw someone put AUD $50 in a slot machine and it was all gone in 3-5 minutes, no track of time but couldn't have been more than that! What made it worse was that I was sitting on the stool so had the best view! 😂 Okayyyy I shouldn't laugh, to be fair it was partly my fault since I was...

It's not so much wanting to die but instead not to live this this anymore.

Australia probably cause I was born here so used to it, not even thinking of tourist locations, I'd rather be somewhere I know I won't get lost (at the time of this answer but I mayyybe want to travel to new places down the line) Favourite alcoholic drink (or non / low alc. versions) Can be...

- Medium sized dog 🐕 - Not sure which breed - It's my last visit so most likely last time we'll cross paths - I don't care cause she can be annoying and sniffs and licks without warning even if I pull away - She tried to sit next to me and comfort me while I was having (mild) withdrawals so...

I walked for 7 hours (well sat down a lot so probably like 5 hours, also was strolling so didn't end up too drained) Didn't seem like that much time at all ...

Some people don't get the idea in their heads until you show enough aggression to make them afraid enough to remember it and not let it happen again.

I never go to pubs cause it's cheaper to get alcohol from the liquor store and with the amount of calories in it I don't drink much anyway. Also being around strangers when that first hit comes on feels intrusive.

Feelings can become muted and numb from constantly being in stressful situations so it's most likely he knows logically you're missing him but maybe not the extent. Maybe he doesn't think 2 weeks is that long. Have you tried asking when he's coming back or why he's not seeing you? I know you...

How you keep your living space is indeed a reflection of your mental space. From experience it's difficult to do the opposite as in living in a tidy room only helps a little with my headspace, and only temporarily as well.

Welcome to the forum! Wanted to point out that the letter 'n' goes before the letter 'g' in a lot of words you misspelled. Actually I think just about every word has the letters in that order so next time remember that and it can't be wrong.

They sure won't find anything inhuman in your scan I'm sure you are aware, if you want to continue this belief then what could you possibly dream up? It's possible to think differently but every brain will look similar.

Has it been 1-2 weeks since the date he said he will return? And you said there "little" contact which means he hasn't disappeared. What did he say? If there's anything at all it's saying a lot. As someone who isolates a lot I relate to not answering with my location and what I'm doing cause...

Therapists are paid to work through your memories and thoughts so it's not like they have the choice to ignore them, just saying. Some of them care and some pretend to, you never know! They're trained to read facial expressions so it's not that difficult to mimic ones they want to portray...

Not every thought about you is positive and it may or may not have been deserved.

Unfortunately I hardly experience depersonalization which is the disorder that can make you wonder if you're a human like the rest of the population. Always been aware that I am and no matter what I do I'm still aware that I'm me, another insignificant person existing on this planet. Born here...

Having value and being human are not the same thing by definition.