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@Silver. Hi, yes I removed it from my profile after I went on and checked what was visible. It was a status someone who left the company tagged me in. I have also since made it so that nothing anyone tags me in goes public, but he still would have seen it already.

So I had a huge back-step a couple of weeks ago. I stumbled across the fact that my abuser had unblocked me on facebook all of a sudden which sent me in to a complete panic.A colleague had tagged me in a public work post so he could see exactly where I work which worries me, plus all the...

@Justmehere i probably should've mentioned I'm not currently seeing my therapist. I finished my sessions months ago and was told if want to come back I can but have to go back on a waiting list. Any tips on grounding?

Ok so I haven't posted in ages but my entire experience with my PTSD has changed and now I'm stuck. I used to be mainly hypervigilent, anxious etc, I got a lot of flashbacks and intrusive thoughts. I was handling it all ok but my nights barrier was sex. When I knew my boyfriend was in the mood...

@Heather you did the right thing, people will always victim blame it's disgusting. Right now part of me is really wishing I could do something, say something. I feel like I'm about to implode. The truth is out there for you, it doesn't matter what people say

Hi guys, I'm determined to leave my current job plainly and simply because my boss is terrible. He's never been a manager before, he's opened a brand new business and he is pretentious, aggressive and can be a bully. I'm looking to leave the fitness industry and just personal train part time...

@Heather There are always going to be people that call you a liar, even if the whole thing was recorded and broadcasted, even if he admitted it, people would still victim blame. It makes it harder when you go to the police and nothing comes of it because everyone assumes that if you're telling...

I have stayed quiet about what happened to me, only my boyfriend, my best friend, my therapist and my Doctor know the truth which is unfortunately the case for many people who have been attacked. I have no intentions of 'outing' him, I am terrified of him and he made it clear that if I said...

Sorry to hear that, it sounds awful! I think a lot of people on here have felt "why me" including myself. I've often felt there must be a target on my back or a curse or I was someone really terrible in a past life to deserve it all. But we are moulded by everything good and bad that happens to...

@ghotiff thank you for reading what you could it says a lot about your own recovery that you tried whilst knowing its content.

@WillyKat I get the robot thing, mine's more smiling all the time and laughing and acting over-confident - at the same time trying to make out like I'm made of steel and nothing could hurt me. An old colleague asked me once if I can even cry because I give off such a strong faced impression...

@WillyKat it is exhausting having these thoughts because I don't want to die. I'll be going through day to day as normal, not thinking much of anything at all then all of a sudden it's just a moment of "I don't want to do this" despite that at that moment, I'm not even doing or thinking anything...

@FridayJones thank you, I didn't think about that with the triggers, I just haven't wrote much about it before and didn't like the idea of making someone feel upset but you're right, this is a thread on sexual assault in a PTSD forum. Strength to you also.

This is the first post I've talked about my assault, I feel like I need to. I have been seemingly doing really well lately on the outside but I know that doesn't bode well for whatever's going on in my subconscious, for one thing my nightmares have been coming back. I have my trauma written...

@halflifeguy i think giving up control is a big issue in sex. Even kissing beforehand I have to clench my teeth together and my fists. A couple of weeks I tried not having to give up control, not lying on my back, not having him over me and it really helped. I still rarely want to have sex but...

I understand this, I still suffer from nightmares quite often but in mine no matter how hard I scream and kick and fight, he's always stronger and no one comes to help. My other half doesn't bug for details either, just gives me a hug and says he can't hurt me. The worst thing is seeing the...

31 oh. Better do some research

I'm so sorry to hear this. This must be absolutely devastating for you. But if this is any help at all - once someone has even been accused of something so dreadful as what he did, they will be labelled as that forever even if found innocent. Once anyone hears that he's been accused, some will...

Most of my sessions, we didn't talk about the trauma at all. Every time she said the R word she knew how uncomfortable it made me and would avoid saying it and often would avoid it. I remember she specifically said that the aim of the sessions isn't so much to delve in the past (although there...

I've suffered with PTSD for 3 years, diagnosed 2 years ago, made much worse following a second assault 1 year ago. I have experienced nightmares on different levels ever since my first trauma but since last year they are so much worse. I think the reason for this is that during my first...

I found it impossible to talk about my trauma. The appointment with my therapist where I had to talk in detail about my trauma had to be pushed forward because I wasn't ready and when I do force myself to talk about it I have to detach from my emotions and almost take a third person perspective...

I can't remember where I heard it but someone said "rape is not about evil, it's about selfishness". Meaning the rapist doesn't always see what he's doing as bad, they just don't care. They want their own satisfaction, be it power, control or sexual gratification. I see evil when I look at my...

I feel ready to stop therapy because she's taught me so much and I feel that the problems I have going forward won't magically be fixed my seeing my T more. I just have to remember everything she's taught me and try not to relapse though it's very hard at the minute. I try very hard with the sex...

Majority of these sound pretty familiar to me. I don't know what the tightness in your head about but apart from that these all look like typical symptoms for someone with PTSD. Thinking everyone's going to attack you, even picturing the scenario of it happening, thinking everyone around you...

I've been through something similar. Self blame is perfectly normal because you feel like even though you were I'm such a state you could've done something. It's so difficult to listen to reason and logic when guilt is playing such a huge role. I tackled with self blame for 3 years, still do...