Injustice And Pain. The Uk Criminal Justice System Has Completely Failed Me.

[Alice Rachel]

Hi All

I haven't been here for a long time. This might be a ramble.

Yesterday my 2 and a half year journey to try and achieve justice against the man who sexually abused, beat me and raped me as a child ended in failure. The jury somehow found him not guilty on all 14 charges. I don't know how or why they could possibly have any doubt about the truth I told them, but they did and they set him free. Its so unjust unfair I will never be free from what he did to me, but now he is. And there is nothing more i can do about it other than try and keep building my life.

I went to the police because I couldn't live with myself if I didn't speak out and break the secretive silence about what he did to me and if he did it to someone else because I didn't speak out. I wanted him to take responsibility for what he did to me and to see the harm he had caused me. I wanted my mum to see that I was telling the truth about him. I wanted to read my victim impact statement in court and have what I lived through and survived acknowledged. And I wished they would lock him up and throw away the key.

I am full of grief because they have just let him go free. It is a physical pain im my heart that wells up through my body. I don't know if speaking out and going through the stress and pain of reporting it and being bullied and tortured under cross examination was worth it. In one way at least I tried, at least if he does do evil things to anyone else, it is the states fault that he's not locked up away from innocent people and not mine for holding his secret for him. But the horror of this is nearly more than I can bare and the only thing that's got me through today is knowing I've survived worse than this.

I don't know what else to say. I just need some support right now.

Xxx

 

[Mosaic]

I'm so sorry to hear this. This must be absolutely devastating for you.
But if this is any help at all - once someone has even been accused of something so dreadful as what he did, they will be labelled as that forever even if found innocent.
Once anyone hears that he's been accused, some will believe it and see him as the filth that he is.

You are so wonderful for having the strength you have and I admire you so much for it all.

You will be ok, the heaviest burdens are placed with the shoulders to bare them.

X

 

[deer_in_headlights]

((((((((((((((((((@Alice Rachel )))))))))))))))))))))))

No words at the moment, all I can do is sit with you and cry with and for you
I'm so sorry...:(:cry::cry::cry:
Someday, justice will come. :cry::cry::cry: Someday :cry::cry::cry:

 

[shimmerz]

I went to the police because I couldn't live with myself if I didn't speak out and break the secretive silence about what he did to me and if he did it to someone else because I didn't speak out.

And that you did. I have great respect for this. I am so sorry for the pain this brought you, but so relieved there are people like you in this world.

I don't know if speaking out and going through the stress and pain of reporting it and being bullied and tortured under cross examination was worth it.

Yes. ^^^^ this I understand. Very much so.

Standing with you.... Tears with you.

 

[Lucycat]

I am so sorry that you did not get justice. But I a, pleased that you are sounding positive, in that you will move forward from this. You know the truth. That is the most important thing.

Take care of yourself while this new reality sinks in.

 

[Intrepid]

There is so much ignorance and stupidity in this world around abuse. It sucks he's still out there. It sucks they let a defense attorney hurt you.

Thank you for posting this, and thank you for doing what you did. I never got the chance. By the time I had my wits back enough to do anything my sexually abusive grandfather was dead. As for the physical abuse I suffered, well, that was "corporal punishment". If it happened to an adult it would have been domestic violence.

 

[InvisibleSun]

My heart breaks for you..I was also failed by the criminal justice system when I watched my rapist walk free. I remember that defeat.. and the way he smiled as he walked out the courtroom.
There is very rarely any true justice for the victims of this horrendous crime. My experience with the criminal justice system was almost worse than the rape itself and I will never trust that system again. I know the grief, anger, and betrayal you must feel and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Much love and support your way!!

 

[Brokensoul88]

I am saddened by your experience, the U.K. justice system is indeed shockingly poor on these types of crime. I have absolutely no confidence in the process and think it is disgusting that the defence is allowed to intimidate you in such an abhorrent manner.

I have never reported what happened to me but I think you have shown incredible courage and a commendable spirit to do what is right regardless of the potential implications for your own well being.

I only hope that in being accused he will carry that around and people will know what he was in court for. It would be on his record now that he was accused so even though they did not find him guilty he will be on the polices radar.

Take care of yourself, I prey that Karma exists

 

[Alice Rachel]

Thank you for all the replies & support. I keep having to remind myself that this isn't the worst I've lived through. I've woken up every morning so far in tears. I'm grieving as if someone has died.

Invisablesun - I didn't go to the court for the verdict, nor the rest of the trial other than when I was in the witness box I couldn't face seeing my unbelieving mother and brother or watch the looks on the rapists face. I'm sorry you have to carry that along with everything else youve been through it really sucks.

Brokensoul88 I pray too that karma exists, he will carry it around & the detective told me that if he gets pulled over for a broken brake light the police officers will have the info on him & never go easy on him. The detective was gutted too, he knew that he'd taken a guilty man to trial.

There is a quote that I keep going back too "...in the UK we have decided as a matter of law that it is better a number of guilty people go free than to run the risk of imprisoning an innocent person." And 'it is better to let 10 guilty men go free than to imprison one guilty person' I think in Scotland they have a better system there is a third verdict the jury can choose of 'not proven' I wish that instead of the not guilty of England that they could have chosen that instead.

In tears and thanks for your support
Xxxxxx

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

((((hugs)))) :hug:

 

[Stickler]

Condolences extended :(:banghead:

 

[Powder]

Life is twists and turns. I am shedding some tears for your and mine sorrow today.
Like you, I reported a workplace bullying, and for about a year it went to nothing. During that year, my PTSD skyrocketed to new heights and I broke loose and remembered my major traumas over a four year time span.

After I broke open, someone else was also reporting it, and the man was fired. Now, I am almost grateful for the bullying because I was able to depart from the abusers, remember what they did to others and to me, and to begin to understand who I am.

You did your part. You did the right thing for all of us. Thank you for bravely standing up to injustice. You are the change I want to see in the world.