Domestic Violence & Trauma With Police/criminal Justice System

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Here is my story in a nutshell. I have been in an extremely abusive relationship and developed PTSD.
It gets in the way of my emotions, school, and social life. I cannot have close relationships and am extremely isolated socially because lack of trust and fear. My PTSD also attributes to my social anxiety.

I was really upset at the justice system and police dealing with my case. And i would like to gain trust in the police again. Nowdays, being around a policeman makes me shake and tremble.

Seriously, I am not a creeper or wierd at all, I try to explain why I have certain fears and why I do not trust many people, and I end up getting called 'weird or i get ignored'
I told a family friend how I don't trust the police to keep me safe and I don't trust them becuase the majority of them are men....And how i have a lack of trust with men....And the dude ignores me now.
I hate PTSD, it gets in the way of everything! What is wrong with me? just because i dont feel safe and im tense all the time, i guess im wierd and worthy of being IGNORED 99.9% of the time

I am recieving EMDR treatment, and it has reduced some symptoms, however, it still sucks majorly.
-Perfectly Flawed

 

[intothelight]

Hi PerfectlyFlawed,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum. I think as you read through the posts and articles, you will find your fears and distrust shared by many others here. There are many members who have PTSD from domestic violence (myself included) and who also have not found the criminal justice system very supportive.

This forum is a great place for information and the support of the other members is wonderful as you work on healing.

Take care.
Debbie

 

[anni]

Hi,

Oh my, no one here will think you're at all wierd, or a creeper, or any of the things you're worried about, promise! When you've been here for a bit, you'll see a few of us with very similar backgrounds in domestic violence and the resultant ( inevitable ) system. For some reason, even though there's not a lot anyone can do to help with your situation just being around others who absolutely understand what you're going through is awfully helpful, as is beginning to understand the PTSD, hence begin your healing.

I hope you're able to come here as often as is helpful for you. Some members find it helpful to start a trauma diary, where one can write pretty much whatever, whenever they wish, as much or as little as need, you know? When I was in the middle of the same situation I wish I'd had this resource at least, since it would have been somewhere to come and not feel so alone with 'all that'. I didn't even know I had PTSD at that point-would have been helpful!

Welcome to the forum, and take care,

Anni

 

[Srain]

Welcome to the Forum.

I'm glad that you found this site. I really don't know who is pegging you as a "creeper" but I sure get the feelings of being ignored or feeling like people just aren't getting what I'm going through. Yet here you are already in treatment and now on a support site doing all of this to get relief from your PTSD and heal! I think you are doing great so whoever is giving you this nonsense is not worth your time, you are more than welcome here.

Take your time and look around. There is a lot of information here and tons of support to take advantage of, I hope you do.

Peace,
Rain

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Thank you for your replies. I am glad I am on this site already.
I am having a difficult time sleeping lately.:cautious: Which worsens my symtoms.
-Perfectlyflawed