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Left work 45 minutes early

Present and in my body (after yoga)

Interesting question! Earliest trauma (molested by older boy in neighborhood) ages 4-6, i regressed and showed other signs of acting out. Then incest starting about age 9 or 10, but worst at age 11 (1979-80.) Stopped abruptly with no further contact and I worked very hard at forgetting and...

Sad but hopeful

My loving and understanding wife My special forum friends My own capacity to feel my feelings, and yet also get myself out of a funk (or at least try to)

(((((Bristol)))))

Tulips

Sad, scared, lost

Myself, for triggering myself something fierce. Almost on purpose, like a form of self-punishment.

It was and is not your fault. And you are working on reclaiming your power. Stay strong, Hermana!

Shame, yet relief, lightness, yet exhaustion

ballet

Wanted to stay home in a sleep coma, but had to go in to work. I did, however, take a slow morning, and didn't rush myself.

When flashbacks and intrusive memories during sex makes you feel like you are cheating on your partner ... with your past.

Well done, indeed, Mariiiiaaaa. You inspire me. I'm proud of you!

Feeling angry at all the men (and two women) who abused me, because it still f*cks my head up and gets in the way of me enjoying sex 100%. Damn them!

Strength! Loving ourselves Enough to exercise Agency over our own Bodies

Grateful, so grateful for my amazing T. She makes me feel so safe, and she is so non-judgmental. I can't even believe what I shared with her today! Also grateful for the level of trust and communication with my amazing wife.

((((((((((Bristol)))))))))) Embarrassed, a little ashamed, yet relieved.

Feeling knots in the pit of my stomach as T time gets closer. Ever more anxious. I'm winding myself up.

Gentle hugs, @CrowFeather, if you accept them, chocolate if not (chocolate makes everything better)

(((((@Junebug))))) Sorry you're having a hard time coping lately.

Keep letting us know of your experience, @barefoot, and your progress! This is a very interesting and relevant thread for a lot of us. When I try to meditate/imagine the chakras, it's very hard for me to do the root (red) chakra, because it's at the base of the spine and encompasses the pelvis...

My awesome T. In a year and a half she has never canceled on me, and I have never missed an appointment. I only get to see her every 2-3 weeks, and those sessions are precious to me. Even the really painful ones.

(((((C j)))))) *** Anxious about T this afternoon.