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That seems odd, I thought normally universities have some sort of flexibility when it comes to people who have a 'disability', and ptsd qualifies as a disability. In my case, leniency was granted. What's their argument for not providing it? Would you feel safe being outside of your parents...

I've got a different, more spiritual take on this (and of course, one can take it or leave it). We are collectively in times of change... a lot of people are feeling "loose sand under the feet", so to speak. I think I know exactly what you mean by "flux states" - I get into states that feel...

The vacuum cleaner. It's like a cleaning inception.

I'd just like to add, although my studying days are long gone, that you are a worthy person inherently, regardless of whether you pass or fail an exam. Society's black and white standards ("passing" versus "failing") are not even remotely representative of personal worth. Unfortunately (but...

This is perhaps a lame suggestion, but could it help to make a list of things that you would say "describe you", and include the qualities you think defined you in the old profession. After all, the qualities that you brought to the table in that job (and maybe made you good at it) are inherent...

Why did the tomato go out with the prune? He couldn't get a date.

Sounds like you're pretty angry, and if it helps you, absolutely you can rant - perhaps drive to the forest and scream what you need to scream at the trees. I'm reading into your words that you're "Mad AF" about what something you think you have been robbed of. Loads of people here have been...

Jamming (pump up the jam, pump it up...)

Again I'd like to apologize, I never meant to assume anything, much less discredit anybody. I was talking purely about my own experience. Which is, that I absolutely loathed the gendered parts of my body, and it absolutely felt related to sexual trauma. And then when I had my surgeries (all of...

Hey @Movingforward10 Really appreciate your reply. Also thank you for saying that I might not be making this up. At this point, I am not completely sure whether I need to 100% confirm that these memories happened. It puts me in a weird position with others, when I try to describe these...

Low-key regret, yes. In the sense that I look back and think, it would have been nice to have finished. But nothing big. I do miss some aspects of it, I love analysis and thinking, but the upside is that I've become much less cerebral and more practical. I don´t know if academia was "my...

Yeah, I quit. Right now I'm laughing. But it wasn't so funny then. :)

That's really good, that you worked through the more psychological stuff, and now the somatic stuff is surfacing. I mean, obviously it is still painful to work through that, but awesome that you made that progress. Welcome to the forum.

Very well worded. Can relate 100%. I had a similar experience to you while going through my higher ed. But it sounds like you're actually pushing through, so I think you're doing pretty well. This forum is great for getting some new insights. Welcome!

I feel perhaps temporary (conscious) dissociation would be better in this situation than having your memories erased. Temporary dissociation will serve you better, in the sense that the trauma happened for a reason (I am not saying that's objective reality, just my personal belief), and will...

Terrible in what sense? No need to reply, but maybe it helps in getting some more focused answers. For example, is it more due to physical, or more due to mental stress, or both. I basically do everything, always, with headphones on. For me, that works better than a white noise machine. What...

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Allright - I'm sorry, I didn't mean to confuse you. I transitioned because of my own feelings of revolt towards my body. But I can't tell for sure if CSA ever happened to me. I remember some things but do not remember all. The only reason I replied is because you were asking if there were CSA...

Feel free to move this post, as I do not know very well, where it should go. It's a bit hard to talk about these things. I'm diagnosed cptsd from severe physical abuse. The thing is that (in addition) I have very lucid, very detailed sexual abuse memories, which I've had since around age 6. I...

I can't say for sure if CSA. I have some memories that have never been confirmed and do not know where to place. That being said I had a full hysto, but I also turned out to be a gender-bender (trans), so in that regard we're probably very different. For me having surgery didn't take away the...

Hey Stuart, welcome to the forum. I don't have trauma from the same background, so can't relate probably, but good on you for joining and taking a step.

Is grandpa the one moving to a nursing home? I'm asking because I am wondering where you might be relocating, and in that case, why you can't take your cats with you. You might still be able to. I was in a similar situation at one point, and the cat ended up living with my uncle for a while...

Rose, in January I accidentally went to the supermarket with a dirty sock velcroed to my jacket. Not because that's the fashion or anything, but because I have a habit of just whacking my clothes on the floor when I get home, then I store them later. But I did not notice the sock on my jacket...

On the topic of homelessness. I've been threathened with eviccion a few times since my twenties, and I also wanted to know 'what it was like' (to be homeless) so I decided to try 'homelessness' voluntarily for a year to see how I would fare, and I did about one year ago. Homeless on drugs is...

Not technically movie or series but I've been almost zealously watching "Goob" of Goobs Adventures on youtube, he's a dude who is currently trying to hike every single long distance trail in the US.